Lose the Labels
12th March 2019
I believe that schizophrenia is not a disorder or an illness. Many people hear voices. It is a psychic condition. I have read comments from Voice Hearers who consider themselves ill or having a disorder. It is often stressful to listen to voices, because what they say can be upsetting, and when you need a break you may not get one. It is stressful to be considered abnormal or unwell by family or community. I’ve had days where I have written in my diary that I don’t feel great. It’s normal to have bad days whether you are schizophrenic or not.
All: “We think this is an understatement, but you will continue to expand on your argument.”
I think we give ourselves medical labels that ultimately do us a disservice by conforming to conservative psychiatry. We try to fit in – I must be unwell because other people think I am. It’s peer pressure.
All: “We think this is wrong. You are speaking about your experience. You will not change this. We think it’s provocative and thought provoking.”
I am determined to stay medicine free and I feel the societal pressure of this decision. I think many voice hearers must give in and believe what other people tell them, because they are not coping. It does not mean what other people tell them is right or ethical.
When I saw a psychiatrist in 2017 and took medicine for eight months, I saw myself trying to downplay my symptoms just to appease him and take the pressure off myself.
Grinch: “I want to say that you are unfair in assuming this. You do know that you are generalising. You just want to make the point that you are political.”
I wonder whether many voice hearers convince themselves that they experience a difference in their psychic symptoms by taking medication, when in fact they are just sedated and less responsive because of it. I was dulled down when I was heavily medicated. I was asleep for a lot of my spare time. I was inert. I did not hear voices at that stage, but my other unusual perceptions were the same.
Grinch: “I was with you at that time. You were depressed as can be. I left you alone more because you were boring to be around.”
I know a lot of people call themselves depressed. They give themselves permission to use this title. It justifies their mental state.
All: “We think you are saying that you see that labels cause despair. That’s all”
Michele: “Thanks. I was a bit jammed there.”
All: “We know. We like to help when it’s about mental health, not you, but you know that.”
When you say you are unwell or ill because of schizophrenia, you are feeding into a misconception held by mainstream society.
I have had bad experiences with two psychiatrists. They however, were just doing their job, and part of their job is to feed poisonous ineffective anti-psychotic medication to voice hearers. This is condoned by mainstream society.
Voice hearers have traditionally been considered healers, prophets, shamans and mystics. Modern medication is a new development and it has created an epidemic of suppression and medicine related complications. I recently read of a new anti-psychotic on the market which has killed seventeen people in Japan since November 2018. The first psychiatrist I saw was very happy to keep trialling new medications on me. I’m glad I wasn’t fed this anti-psychotic.
All: “This is so good. You should post this. We want to say that you are a legend for leaving that psychiatrist. He was a creep. You know that. You should say his name so that he sues you, because he will win. He has authority status. You do. You are going to court to sue him too. We will back you up. We will.”
I’m not sure about legal action, but it’s good to express my opinion through words. By the way, mind readers, I didn’t see any of you coming forward to support me when I was struggling with that man.
I subscribe to the International Voice Hearing Movement’s understanding of voice hearing, that it is a meaningful human variation. This movement rejects the stigma and pathologisation of voice hearing and advocates human rights.