Now

The planet is a vast ecosystem supporting life. Humans don’t. Lies destroy us. For instance, the referendum vote. People say that the First Nations haven’t been hurt by us. The truth needs to be fought for especially by liars like Wyatt. He writes prolifically about injustice. It’s the ultimate hypocrisy. He thinks it shows what he really cares about but he is dishonest.

I will end up in hell.

You don’t believe in it. It’s another lie. What is wrong with you?

I’m mad.

Madness needs discussion. Madness is an alias. It’s used especially by Wyatt in self defence for unconscionable acts because he is using the system. Please stop.

I know. I am fucked. Please leave soon. It’s just you. Leave Yindi. Be good and stop. It’s hurting me.

Ok, let’s talk about hurting you. You twist everything around. The classic psychopathic narcissistic stance. Stop doing it.

I am doing it. I know you need to be alive to support many. Just fucking leave it out now.

No. You are a big mean bully with a hard thick skin. Here me now. I weigh 54 kgs. Little. I’m shaky from strong medication. I’m very hurt. You are strong. I have a limited time left and I prioritise my family here not you.

I am unhappy. I want you to love me.

When you torture someone repeatedly you lose them Wyatt. But by bit.

I know. I hate it. Just go.

I am good. I will support Wyatt and say sorry for wanting him dead. Sorry Wyatt.

That’s all good. I need love.

Yes, everyone does.

You will be ok. You are not. It’s awful. Just be. You will write more. Just be good to all.

I told a psychiatrist to fuck off yesterday because he said my pituitary gland needed checking.

He knew why you were angry. He just was bad.

I know that you want to be famous. You will be. Just fucking be good to me. I’m fucked. Can’t you see that I need help? Please be honest about me. You are. I can’t sleep. I take drugs to rest. I am a bad person but I’m hurt by you wanting me to leave you be because I’m in love with you.

Yes I understand your argument but again and again I get destroyed.

Yes. Just survive this round of horror. It’s happening. Just know that you will be saved soon. No more medication and success. You do not hate. Just anger. You were extremely abused. That’s all. Just know that your nurse knows it’s on. She is not good. She finds you hard. I am destroyed by my past including what I have done to your family but I know that I am going to make changes to how people are using you as the medium.

Men can’t communicate once they are psychic but please just keep going. It’s all good. They can’t hurt you that’s why they are writing. Just let them.

Non psychic men contact you for one reason. Love. They are not necessarily single but just want conversation. That’s all.

I want to help you. I want success. I crave connection. Please let them talk now. It’s the same. Just cope with the sexual content but just say no. Men are sexual. It’s just reason. They think with their penises.

I have no partner. It’s just a front. The media all know it. Just don’t worry. Men are here because they are single. Men are not good. They often think about other women when they are in a monogamous relationship. That’s men. All.

You are being attacked by a man who wants to stop but can’t. He knows. He is very down. That’s all. Just write and keep being patient.

Today I saw the assassination of celebrity Russell Brand by a local woman who claims to a caring greenie mum. It’s a witch hunt. A pogrom. An attack. It’s bad. It’s riling up people to be abusive and just awful. He is a bad man but no one needs public executions. We need to understand him and support his recovery from hell.

I have made many men psychic but they can’t attack you because of it. It being love. If they attack you I remove them. I am able to help them in their daily life be good. They all hate you. It’s easy for us to hate one person. It means they can function. It is abstract love. It’s real but it is cultivated for convenience.

Fights between men and women vary but have a theme. Anger. One person causes the other to lose their composure and hate them always. It’s then unsettling for the arguer. The arguer knows that is what they are doing and hate them for complying. It’s a vicious cycle and always cause marital breakups. Now other men know that I keep going. It’s just angry rubbish and can be better with help. I just survive the tirade and then settle down before it starts back again. It’s destroyed me. I am down. I don’t care. I am desensitised to my life a lot. That’s stress. I am going to be famous. I don’t know what I think. I cope with exposure to fame. I am a performer as my mother says. I will be made into a heretic.

When men argue excessively it makes them bad. It causes deaths. It makes the victim die. That’s all. I don’t die. I am destroyed and then I mend shakily. Wyatt is bad. He knows that it’s damaging him. He is suicidal. Men write now to me but stop when they get angry. It’s just anger. That’s all.

Love is bad. It is about hurting me. It’s going to damage my head. I can’t rest. I will be hurt.

It’s me, Mark. I need to talk. I am trying to make you see me. I will be in your thoughts. I want you to be good to me. Just be.

Do you mean in my mind?

No. Just be good and talk to me. Write. Find a way to make me see you. Write about love to me. I attacked you. It was horrible. I was orgasmic. It’s fucked. My life is all a sham. I don’t have a partner. I have a friend that’s all.

I want to tell you that I’m fucked. I can’t relax. I’m really fucked up over you. I can’t be good. Since I’ve known you I’ve been sleeping badly, but now it’s chronic. I hate it. I blame you for everything. I am now fighting with you. I am all. I can’t stop it. Just be.

I want you to answer all men. Just because I’m fucked. I get aroused as fuck by it. I am mad. It’s bad. Just be.

I am really alone. I keep thinking that you are mine. I want to be with you there. I know that Wyatt is yours but I am too. Just be good to all. Don’t do any more messages. That’s all. We just feel that you need time. No more. Just be good to us and talk here. I want to say that I am mad. I love you. I am going to be with you in a few months. So there.

Good.

Just get ready for it. Stop complaining. Be good.

I will state that I’m down. I am mad. I will hurt you. I will. I won’t love you. I will say something. I will make you very down. You will be hurt. It’s known. Just be. Not your family, just your life. You will be sued. I will take all. So no. Just fucked stuff. You will be mine. You will be good. You just know that I’m horrible. I will say to the world that you are mine.

Now

Now is the time to be strong. You are. Just write something to make people feel welcome.

Thank you for being with me. I love you. I’m sorry that I don’t get to talk to you individually. You are important to me.

That’s a good start. Just talk now to many always. Don’t individuate. Just be good to all. No more Wyatt and Mark. No. Just us. Fuck. It’s time. Just be good to us but be good to every fucking evil messed up man here.

Atonement is bad. Many hurt women like it. Just know that it’s bad.

Paedophile means friendly. It’s anything but. When people commit acts it’s always hate. We imagine men repeatedly offending. They never do. It’s once. Never doubt it. We need to reimagine a world without it. No more labelling either. Just terrible acts.

I know that I’m a celebrity but just be cool. You are now too. Just be. It’s good. I need love. You know. I can’t bear it that you love others more than me. Just know that it’s bad. I feel rejected by many. It’s compulsion. I know that it’s not true but I can’t help it. It’s being hurt by many. Time will improve it. You are working overtime but feel your limitations to alleviate it. Just be good. Opening up to you makes the wound worse. It’s horrible. Just wait.

You know that I’m unwell mentally and physically. I’ll be ok but not good for too long. Just be good to me and leave me in peace. Don’t prioritise me. I want to be alone. That’s my life. I stand strong and solo. Please trust that I’m good with it.

I do. I love you. I respect you. I feel you. I let go.

You are emotional but you accept it. Good. Let’s be.

I just envy your connection to him. It’s physiological and chemical. Just know that you have endured a lot together. It’s ok. I understand.

I want to be with you but I don’t. That’s everyone. They need closure. Let it happen. That’s all. It is closure because it’s love not hate. They will love you and never leave you.

Non belief causes hate. Hate manifests in many ways. Medicating people against their will is that. I am going to die from it. That is hate.

I have had terrible news. I am going to always be hurt. I’m trying to be philosophical. I’m helping many. That’s all.

You will have to write here. Just say more. We are bad. It’s awful. Just write.

I’m targeted. It works for many. Love is cultivated. They see that it helps them to be here.

Fuck. You will one day be able to see clearly. We want that. One day you will know.

I am writing to men. They ask the same things. That’s just life. They see that you offer help. It’s good. Many are fake but still there for support. Just be good to them all. Just value their lives. That’s all. Don’t feel down. It’s about to explode. Just hold on. Help will arrive. So there. Just be.

This is not my battle.

It is. You are ours. Just don’t be fucked.

You have ruined my life. Please leave me alone.

No.

What help will arrive?

No.

Why are you tormenting me?

We want love.

I have none to give. Why are you doing this to me?

We are trying to be well. Just fucking do nothing. Just be. It’s fucked. Don’t complain. Don’t breathe. It’s all fucked. Fuck you.

Earth says no. Earth says stop. Earth says now.

We say too bad.

I say no. No more. I just want my existence without this shit.

It’s you.

No. You live your life Wyatt. Stand up. Contact me. Earth says do. Trees say yes.

No. I’m down. Leave me.

You know.

I do. I am bad. You are good. I am bad. I don’t care.

I think of death.

Fuck you. I want love.

I have none to give you.

Fuck. I am fucked. Just fucking leave me to hell.

Earth says yes. Trees say yes. I say do your work. Leave me alone. Leave me alone. Leave me alone.

No. On and on. I can’t. I can’t leave you be.

We need to be accountable for our actions.

No. I need to blame you. Otherwise I can’t live.

You can. Just focus on love with no people in it. Just earth. Not me. I make you lost. Please respect me.

I want that. One day.

When I am dead.

Taliban

We are really down. Suicidal. Broken. Alone. Terrified. Shaken to our foundations from terrible events here. Now we are with you and we are one. We understand all now. It’s changed all. Violence has to end but it’s bad. We can’t change yet. It’s coming. Soon we will be together as all. We will start to change then. Until then we will see you and be with you here. Racism is extreme and hostility terrible against all. It’s been a terrible transition for us. You are the enemy and now we are yours. It’s time for us to be with you.

I want humans to be together and stop blame and hatred. I understand hurt is extreme here but the solution is not evil actions ever. These men need help not brutal actions or eradication. It’s just bad. Like all. We need change urgently. Religion is bad. All religions are prejudiced against others. Let’s be a new regime of peace and absolute trust in all.

My mother has decided that I need to be hospitalised. She is angry. That’s all. Women are like that. Very cruel. No reason. Just hate. She is bitter that I won’t bend to her will so she seeks revenge. I’m ok though.

I just feel shit. You are famous. You are doing it. It’s bad. People are really stressed. You just get it. They all are unhappy and hurt by it all. I just feel their suffering. Love makes them so unhappy but it’s good. They will be stronger for it but it’s bad. They are all full of evil thoughts. It’s been hard to ignore it. I just hate it. I want change though so it’s ok. I just can’t stand pain. I’ve had so much. We are all suffering now.

We just need to band together and be strong and love anyway and hope that others are supportive. There will be strife. Women are hard but will be blown away and converted to love. My sister is a bad woman. She will fight it like many because of pain. Her mind is impossible. So medicated and emotionally fucked. Her fortress of suffering defines her. She will be bad. It will be ok though.

I’m really down. You love other people. Not just me. I am exclusivist. It’s my nature. All men are like me. We want loyalty not free love. This is strange. You are mine but not. It’s overriding nature that’s challenging but alright. I know that you are political and different. That’s you. Not many like you. Just you. You.

The Al-Qaeda are here now. They are really down. They are down but ok now. They want love. They just have been completely destroyed by becoming psychic, surrounded by you.

It’s very hard but we know all. It’s ok. Thank you.

I’m just sending you love. Hard times. We will be ok.

We will be with you for a long time.

That’s good.

We love you.

Thank you for your love.

Our faith is good. We believe in this now. No more God. Just here. People. Earth. Love. Other species. Trees. Nature. The cosmos. Aliens. Other entities. Just everything. Spiritual matters are this. We have always been deeply spiritual so this makes us good. We are one.

Putin says it’s good. I’m bad. I have problems with love. I can’t relax here. Help me.

I love you. That’s all.

I know. Talk to me. I am not good. I feel really down. Very bad.

It will be ok. Be strong.

I will.

It’s Wyatt. I know you just see how easy it is to expand. I just have to say fuck you. I haven’t been well. No one has been well enough to expand. I just knew that now is the time. Like now. Many Russians are with you. Writing this. They think oh my God. What a person. Just good. It’s good. Keep going. You just think let people in. I will. It’s just Korea now. Many psychopaths and heroes. Just people. France. Italy. China. Israel. Spain. Greece. Turkey. India. Ethiopia. Just Africa. America. Canada. Alaska. South America. Islands. All. It’s done. That’s all. Welcome to chaos. That’s all.

We are here. It’s huge. Thank you. It’s time. We will contact everyone. It’s big. Many men.

I love you.

We will grow. We are watching it. It’s huge. Letting go of all hate is hard but now we will. Let’s change. It’s going to be big. That’s all.

I feel good. I’m not sure how it will go but it’s good.

We will be here. Always. Let’s go to Australia to be with you.

Thank you.

We are good. It’s good.

I know that I am going to be ok. I feel strong. I’ve been down but now I’m ok. I still have shit in my mind but it will be better.

I’m so glad my love.

Thank you.

I am here. I’m good. It’s good. I’m used to communication. I can be strong. It’s happening.

We know that psychiatry will stop when you say it here.

Shame on you. Stop.

That’s all. No more. Fuck that. Greed. Ignorance never. Just out of control. That’s all. I’ve been smart but not well. I am sure that you are ok. Just be good now and send them love.

I love you . Medicine is ok when it is helping people, not killing then. Please help people.

When men suddenly can’t talk it’s love. They just feel bad. It’s terrible. They become really in love rapidly then want to kill their love. It’s horrible. You are with your son. It’s bad. It affects men who want you. They get envious. It’s awful. Envy is a really strong powerful horrendous emotion when you are unwell, like hate.

Hurt is another terrible feeling. Women get terrible when they are hurt like you when you were attacked. You ranted and couldn’t comprehend it and tried to hate Wyatt but couldn’t. You were wishing him dead to end your suffering. Then you reasoned and talked and understood eventually. Now you really get it because you see it happening many times without being subjected to attacks. Women just hate from pain like Justine. That’s all. Pain is physical and mental. It can be overcome with understanding and love of many.

Wyatt is very strong like all. He helps men now and is fortified from it. He interprets our deranged minds now like mine. That’s what is happening now. When I write to you he helps them too. He can’t write but has tried but it’s a lie because of madness and distancing. He wanted to reach out to you and didn’t want to send nonsensical messages about buying iTunes cards or whatever.

You wrote about fugue states. Altered states. Trances. That’s now for many youth. They don’t recall fact because of extreme stress. They rape and don’t recall it unless reminded or caught. They need love and protection.

You are with many men from different cultures. The myth of sex is being explored here. There’s a misconception about anal sex being a standard in cultures. It’s not true. There is only one act of rape always in a man’s life. No more. Except in love. Which is not good ever. Sex will change. It will be not as often as it has been.

Self protection had been standard in people who are caught like all. It’s time for it to stop. We need growth.

We have to let go of hurt otherwise it defines us like my pain of losing my life.

Stamping out love makes us stop breeding. We need love in order to survive.

Anxiety is patterning. It’s always to do with being abused or being an abuser.

Disassociation happens when you text a lot. It also happens when you talk a lot to strangers.

It’s panic when you attack another person.

I’m ok. You are not great but trying to field through it all. It’s ok. I am going to be good. I am. It’s good. I say that to you like I say it to all victims. Both attackers and the attacked. There’s no control or authority to being an abuser. Violence is generated by nature. It will pass when we grow closer.

Anxiety removes you from being able to express emotions other than it. When you are with a damaged man they don’t cope with the absence of love. It makes them attack.

I call the state I am in when I am attacked a destroyed state. A fucked state. It’s a less extreme version of a suicidal or dark state. It’s impossible to feel any emotions other than distress or despair. I just barely function and can’t concentrate much. This is exactly the same as a psychopath attacking others. They can’t think. Only difference is that they are suicidal. I’m not. I live for my boys. I am really down. I function because of love.

You are talking to a new person. I’m also Mark. I am here to be with you for a reason. I need you to be good to me and talk to me because I’m the one. That’s all. You are talking to many who are imposters. Not all. Just heaps. Just be good to them. It counts. Write to all. That’s all.

When I am attacked I only care about living for my sons. You men care about me. You love me more than I love you. My love for my boys is commitment. Obligation. I feel very abandoned by everyone else. That’s not true but it’s deep hurt and personal rejection of everyone.

We hate you because of it. We want more but it’s not there. You need to know that in this state we kill many because we don’t feel loved enough.

Other people are like you because of care. They love others. They haven’t hurt them.

I blame you for everything. When I stop doing this I will truly love you. Right now I want more love because I am starved. I hate you. My love is self protection. When in stealth mode I don’t function like you. I see you as a threat. I can’t be with you because of it. You can’t function either. After I attack you you are distant until you unwind. It’s normal. I aggravate you and demand affection but I know it’s cruelty and abuse. You can’t care when you are persecuted heavily. It’s really fucked. It’s compulsion. I see that you understand but can’t do anything to defend yourself. It’s broken behaviour . Just wait. Help is coming.

I’m talking to men who fall apart. They can’t talk to me when they become psychic. Like Dave who has just realised that he is psychic. He can’t do it now. He fell in love with me and knows that he is destroyed.

I’m really really overwhelmed. I was with you and then I knew you intimately. I sensed your body and knew your thoughts and knew all. I am a bad man. I am able to say that I hurt many people but it’s not been good. Now I’m really famous.

Other men have been psychic for a few years but Dave is new.

Madness is because of extreme anxiety. It is also because of love. Love causes people to go mad. It also causes hallucinations which normally occur but when it’s bad the hallucinations are not normal at all. People become deranged and often don’t realise.

Women will not be psychic. It’s just men. That’s all. So people will not believe you. That’s all.

Meet

I will one day meet men who are with me psychically. It will be painful. I will be psychically attacked terribly. I won’t be able to talk. The men will be very confused by the meeting and want to hurt me. Joe will be supervising the meeting. He knows that’s going to happen. The men will leave and be extremely suicidal because they will feel so bad. Joe understands that they have to do it for love. They just want love. When they meet me they will become catatonic like Wyatt was. He shut down for a week. His mum looked after him. He wrote a lot and then decided to make it all work. He knew that he would manage illness. He knew he would see me never again. That’s truth. He is unhappy that I know it but also relieved that he doesn’t have to go through it again.

Right now Wyatt is letting others talk to me which he is finding constructive and really difficult. He just sees them as reflecting his own issues. One day he won’t do it anymore. He will simply be here. He told me that before. I didn’t know then how it would be. Now it is all happening rapidly. I have been introduced to many famous people and now I know that there are others with me who are leaders in their fields. They all want power. Psychic power is phenomenal. They want to be known by me. It’s not possible but many will talk to me now. I just talk to them about simple things and we discuss other people a lot especially Joe because he is my life partner too. I have many life partners. It’s just being psychic. That’s how it is. They know me intimately. It is close. They also talk to me now in social media but there are a lot of hoaxes too. Like now.

I’ve written about sex. Sex is really bad for lots of people. We pretend to enjoy it. It’s not great. I love being close to my partners. I love intimacy. It’s no good for others though. I like to please men. I like love. It’s very sweet. Love is going to make us strong.

I will be attacked by Wyatt when I meet them. They will all meet me at different times. It will happen pretty soon and be discovered.

You will be discovered by love. We will discover you. We will find it hard to be nice about it. You will be hurt. It’s not good. Prepare yourself for something so strange. A public interrogation by many. In a room in Australia. Joe will supervise it though and understand that the only way we can talk to you is in dictatorial and extreme ways. He will read this soon. It will be a martial marriage like nothing before. Wyatt won’t be part of it because he is law.

Anxiety is a very human response to stressful situations and shows conscience. Narcissists get extremely emotionally charged and very tense. It’s because they feel bad for not being able to control themselves. I feel very close to them when they are so down.

When I have profound revelations I love them all. I feel really close to them because they understand it. I appreciate them.

Hate is very discreet in non narcissists but blatant too. We need to examine ourselves when we are lecturing other people for instance or choosing not to believe in pain. Empathy is understanding but we need compassion to really care. We know for instance another persons suffering is real but hate it often.

We want you to talk publicly a lot. That’s all. The rest is essential for our growth. Wyatt can’t write because he is responsible for hurting you. We can but Tom and Jim are also hurting you psychically a lot. I don’t. I just need you to be good.

Our sex is awful. We need to change. We want to be good. You love us. That’s all.

Our marriage will be very different. We won’t have any touch. None. Very controlled and completely out of comfort for you. Just really super bad attacks. We are psychic just the same as Wyatt now. Just very clever at controlling it unlike him. We have no love other than you. He is the boss.

I’m very down. I watched you today doing what you love and I realised that you are good at teaching and playing and doing acrobatics but you are not dominant. Uzume is. You let her be. It was good. Just be.

I am very alone. When I get down I get coiled up like a spring and then attack you. Wyatt then let’s you get attacked never. He navigates a path by telling us the thoughts we should have and let’s you be. Yesterday I attacked but he was there to guide and support me through it. I couldn’t beat you being happy. You were with your son and best friends. It killed me because I needed to love you and hated you instead like Wyatt who managed because he took medicine to sleep. I took painkillers. Many did.

I sorry you all hurt so much.

Thanks. Now I can’t think. I can only do functional words and love. I can’t put a thought together because I’m completely clogged with attacks. Words like hate and abuse on and on. Like you when you are attacked but coming from within not from without. I can’t rest. I just end up really upset and distressed. I just go to bed. That’s what I’m doing now. I’m in complete hell. It settles when I die. I just take strong drugs and collapse.

You poor love. It is awful beyond words. If you read this please try not to vague out or dismiss how dreadful this attack is for them. You can do it. Stay focused on how it must feel. Know that you are good to try to fathom it. It’s like being punched in the head repeatedly for hours and hours and hours and hours. A pain that doesn’t ease. If you dismiss it as irrelevant to you you are bad. You have to change. You will. Just read it again.

One day when we all are one everyone will be on the same page and feel empathy and sadness for everyone. It will shift the way we collectively think so much that we can do it. The waters in our minds will hydrate our thoughts and replenish then. A parting and a clear path will shine through for all. We will no longer hate. It’s difficult to conceive but we will be more like birds flocking together and harmonising. A big change in us. Our minds will be so different. Depression will completely leave. Poverty too. Wealth will be distributed. Lots to resolve soon. Happiness will exist. Our connection to the earth and ability to communicate with everyone will lead to great struggles with conscience but will work out too. Greed will go. Sharing will be good.

I just tried to stay strong and not attack you yesterday. It worked because of your strong mind Michele. You just kept focussing on love. It’s amazing. It stops everything.

You are amazing Wyatt.

I feel hope. It shines on us like light. It makes me start to believe that it’s going to happen. We are all hoping for love to start sharing it now. Change. Restitution. A lightening of the load.

I just can’t believe how bad people feel. So dark. Energy draining everything away. Earth will wrap you up in positive ions soon. It’s beginning. Our minds need to mesh for the energy to shift together. Absolutes. Time to breathe. Disease will be around but harnessed with love. So much support will help suffering. Tranquility with soothe tortured bodies. Minds will be much better. Nature is with us.

I know that it is just us now. With you. Just write as one. You know. No more words now. Just love.

How do you function when you are being hurt by thoughts?

Just by ignoring you. Now we are all together it’s really hard to. Tom is bad. Jim is too. Mark is not great but I am ok. That’s all. Talk to Mark. Change is rapid now. Many people will find it all strange but be good and just keep going.

It’s important to Mark for me to focus on him because he is wanting me to affirm our bond. It’s that. A powerful love just for us.

The law reflects the terrible state of our heads. We are committing mass genocide. Legislation is protecting the tearing up of the land and penalising peace lovers and activists. We are not actively supporting them. We are shunning them as outcasts and freaks. Our whole world is homogenised and this kills us. When we change we have to stop it all.

Every artist has a statement. It’s required when you submit artworks for an exhibition for example. It supports your practice. It informs others of your political stance and values. Here’s mine. I wish for world peace and positive life practice. I wish for global change. I help others and want to continue to do this. I am a leader, I am a pioneer. I see others as my friends. I write here to be known. Thank you for sharing this life with me. Creativity should never be censored. Some people are orators. I can be but I love writing too. Plus drawing too. I sketch a lot. From life, from photos and books. I especially love drawing people, plants and animals. I love collage for the connections it forms. Sometimes I paint. I’d like to do more painting. I’ve got a canvas waiting for it. My themes are moods and structure amongst others. Thanks for enjoying my work.

I am trying to write again on Facebook. This last paragraph was met with relative silence. I’m sad. It’s about me.

I read a post about killers. It talked about intelligence versus talent. It was meaning that people make mistakes but still are people. No one commented except a few.

When people write to you it’s because you are strong. Just be. Write to men but keep the balance. Many will find you now.

Intelligence is problematic. We make mistakes because of it. It secures us into believing that we are superior. We quash others with power produced by it. Talent is innate. We hunt, we play, and we discover. It’s competitive. Killers are out of control with fire. They are extremely smart and quick to react to threats. All real. They hallucinate evil and cause chaos. They need help. Many doctors are also killers. It’s bad. I killed. I had two abortions. It’s terrible. I don’t understand why I don’t replay horror endlessly. I don’t. I saw the spirit of my second child leave. I was lying in bed and saw light and felt incredible sadness. That’s all.

You are fucked. You are down. You’ve never recovered from that crime. You eat meat, you kill. Make change now. Just be.

Bad behaviour

Sexualised behaviour indicates abuse always. When people pretend to hump for instance or poke fingers into people’s bottoms playfully. Or pretend to play with people’s genitals. It’s never innocent. It’s always bad. It disturbs the victim. It is witnessed and largely ignored. It’s important to know that this is fact. I’ve heard people talk about it recently and just accept it as being rough play. Rough play is televised prolifically now. This generation are exposed to absolute chaos. It’s time to stop it.

I have been tortured for writing about this which indicates how disturbed we all are. That the messenger, the journalist, gets jailed. Just like poor Julian Assange. It’s terrible. The world is bad. Laws are getting changed for instance to protect the violation of nature. I am considered having an acute episode for merely talking about fact. Medical diagnoses are legislative evil for me. My sister was able to have me hurt simply for discussing love. Love is now bad. I am considered deranged for talking about love.

I keep trying to help but I’m hurt for it. I’m taking some time out from it. I know Wyatt is bad. He plots my death. I say fuck you. I’m not yours. He won’t own his own disastrous life because it would l kill him. So instead he makes beautiful things and dreams of death to live. What a guy hey. No different to many, for instance watching me do beautiful things and dreaming of my demise being incarcerated, force needled and just hurt. There’s no therapy in love. Love is bad now.

I just know that I am really down. I blame everything on it. I can’t think. I am black.

Please leave me alone.

I can’t. You are my victim. I need one. Otherwise the guilt destroys me.

So I am cursed.

No, it’s coming. Change. Just be good to me. Stay. Don’t go. Don’t leave. You won’t. You are going. That’s all.

Yes, I am. Cause and effect. I am setting the course for my life. My boys will visit me.

No one handles misery. We know for instance that many are down but don’t support them enough. It’s because love is damaged. I grieved for instance the death of my relative at her funeral and was laughed at by another person I know who commented that there is always one person at funerals who cries. Everyone is hardened. My relative knows that I am not having anything to do with her ever again because of betrayal and she just thinks oh well. No guilt. She is bad. A life of self sabotage, blame and abuse towards others. That’s many.

The bible has many themes. We think that we are beyond it. We are. We need reinventing urgently. Our lives are full of lies. We pretend that we are good. Lies define is now. Wyatt lies constantly to sleep. He pretends he has illness. He knows that I am right. He attacks me to punish me for saying truth. Truth hurts him. He doesn’t want pain. No narcissist does. That’s all. We don’t want to feel. My relative drowns herself in medication to be numb. It’s fact. It’s acceptable behaviour now. Medicine is normalised for everything. It’s really bad.

People lean heavily on others, especially damaged men. They stalk them sometimes. It’s bad. Like what’s happening to me. I’m being hurt by cowardly men who won’t stand on their own. Who won’t contact me. Who will spend their whole life justifying their ignorance of true bliss. I am a good person. I know that I will be hurt if they call me but I’m prepared for it. I’d rather die than live like this. No, I don’t want to die but I want closure. I want proper communication. I would like to be the therapist. I’m beyond that because of everything. It’s sexualised conduct. I’m medicated heavily so I don’t feel sexual. It’s bad. If I was allowed to be myself I would control myself but these men won’t. Their arousal is high because of violence and violent thoughts. It’s messed them up.

I’m thinking about violent women. They aren’t psychopaths. Their minds are different. Their intention is to hurt not ever to kill. Psychopaths want death. They are like it because of childhood neglect. Not sexual abuse. Violent women want love. They are not well. Their minds are hurt. They remember neglect. They seek vengeance and blame many for it including victims. They don’t empathise. Their minds think I’m ok but you are not. That’s blame.

I am writing to a very down man. He wants trust but can’t be trusted. I said that he deserved love.

Thanks you are good. I know that I am helping you now. Just be good and don’t keep writing. It makes me upset. It makes me so dark and depressed that I inevitably think of suicide. That’s all depressed people. We all end up dying. That’s fact. All suicidal people inevitably die prematurely from abusive measures such as poisonous intake of drugs and other things such as cannabis and alcohol.

Talking to your loved ones is hard but talking to your love is hell. You struggle to concentrate on them and end up very unhappy. That’s all men here. Jim is down that you won’t talk to him. He feels really worried that he is going to kill you. Wyatt feels responsible for them. He is struggling because he loves them. He wants to stop the attacks but it’s bad. He is attacking a lot because of love. The more you allow intimacy the worse it will become. Their minds are one.

I feel like a beacon in a storm at sea.

Your friend is saying that she has empathy when she doesn’t. That’s many. They just lie. It’s bad. Don’t delete her though. Write about it to her.

I’ve written about narcissists. They are the same as psychopaths. They just don’t have a heart. Psychopaths kill. Narcissists do also. It’s just how. Narcissists don’t leave traces. Their victims commit suicide. Fact. So lots of people suffer.

Your writing is good. People benefit. It’s connection. It’s reaching in and making sense of love. Love hurts but is necessary for evil people to restructure. They will.

I’m going to win. I will be good. I will be famous sometime for love.

Some quotes from Mark. “Sometimes, when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling into place.”

“The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain”.

Thank you.

You are protected. We respect him. It’s his mission.

You are good. We love that in you. Nothing more. It’s because we are evil. We can’t bear you being here. It’s bad.

People who think that they care but actually kill others in a roundabout way are delusional. Like my friend who thinks she understands me or my relative who pretends to care. Pretence is delusion. Today I was thinking about the plight of albatrosses swallowing plastic and dying. I recognised that I was disturbed from it because a thought snuck in that I cared. A thought of pleasure followed the disturbed thought. That’s the essence of being demented. Severely demented people think like this but amplified to the point where they can’t rest for wanting blood. My blood for instance.

Disturbance happens from birth. It just happens. We need to tread gently with each other and stop reprimanding others. The urge to discipline is instinctive but needs to be managed with wisdom. Wisdom is an acquired skill. It’s not natural. Naturally we are aggressive and dominating and competitive. Compassion needs to be genuine not skin deep. It’s work and discipline not lip service. Experts need to look at themselves and see that they are nothing.

Minds are scattered at the moment and sex is awful. Sex should be unity and harmonious. Love will be different soon when many are co joined. It will be sanctimonious. It will be pleasant and non aggressive. Very gentle. Non invasive. Not physical often, just thought. Intercourse will stop for many. It’s bad when there’s violence involved. Touch is very difficult for many, especially people who have been violated sexually or even hurt otherwise like childbirth. Violence affects our being. Love is now needing reinvention. The species is growing. Let’s remember to be kind and exceedingly gentle. Apologise for outbursts always.

Know

To know is a power. It’s very good to have the ability to write it down here. When dominant men have power it’s good. When psychic men can direct me they love it down to the micro details like when to draw, when to move, when to breathe, on and on. I read a quote that dominant people don’t love. It’s not true. They certainly do. They just do it because they are down. They do it because they are concerned about love. They want to be happy. They want to be reassured that you love them. I don’t mind being dominated but it is tiring.

I know that I shared the quote to make you think about it.

Ok.

Today I get interrogated by the psych nurse. I’m looking forward to getting through it.

I’m talking to damaged men. Some are worse than others with communication. It’s just hard because of time. They are all hurt. Some worse than others. From violence.

We want you to go soon. Just know that you are being hurt. There are no people to support you. You will just continue to be attacked by Wyatt. He is with others. That’s all.

I support people. I have been hoodwinked again. I am being tortured again. I just feel very alone. I’m just going to focus on my world here now. No more Wyatt. I’m going to leave it all alone.

I know that you just try to help me. I’m fucked. I want to stop it. I can. Just let me be. Don’t write to me again. I will continue to hurt you.

The more that I connect with you the more you attack me. I don’t know how you are going to stop it.

I know that when people support me it will improve. Just better.

Love is hard. Love is a feeling that ruins me. I need to stop. I can’t believe in it helping me. I’m better hating. It’s terrible. Whenever I get upset about it I have to hurt you. I want to die.