Of an uncertain personality phase

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Of an uncertain personality phase

5th May 2019

The message of confusion and psychological pain that gets punched into a psyche, that can be lifted with conscious knowledge.

An authoritative member or members of the family will be teaching violated and vulnerable victims lies in the form of complex, unresolved, unconscious confusion. They do this because this is where they are in their conscious ascension. They have not found the method to resolve the unsolved riddles of this lifetime.

We need to change our limited understanding of psychological abusers in families and in the wider community. They are operating from “an extremely open form of misunderstanding and no conscious awareness, often from the terrible programming that they generate from not being understood from an early age. If you have been abused in your life you will often not remember the worst parts. When you become a violator, you are frequently aroused but unaware that you still have choices, that’s it.”

Simply put, the offender passes on their anger and confusion into the victim’s whole make up and personality. This can be erased when the person is told the truth about the abuse, and not a made up truth. This is very hard, especially when it is known in the family of the offender that they are fragile and express suicidal intentions, but you are not making the right caring decision to lie to protect their life. They will have to ride it out unfortunately, and there are real risks as the offender often is very fragile because of their terrible crimes.

All: “We see that you have not mentioned that a child or person who is altered by abuse is recognisable. There are many testimonial accounts on Intervoice and social media that mention how people who are threatened fabricate a version of made up facts. But it is not going to help anyone to continue falsifying the real situation. You have been altered by violence.”

I have started to addressed some of the salient mistakes and traumas sustained from other people in my life. It’s an ongoing process. I’m aware of all my crimes against animals and the earth and that I am not making enough of a contribution towards human rights issues such as overpopulation. I’m actively attempting to everyday keep improving a little of my tightfisted stance.

I have felt a huge change by starting to address the interpersonal and intimate relationship mistakes I have been a major contributor to in my life and hence working on personal justice. I have lifted a body of fear, confusion and anger from me. I observe that shallower affect for me personally has been an partial alleviation of real and perceived emotional fear. I am still aware of some fear that originates from myself and other places and people, and the latter because I’m a threat to some people who are frightened and very sad.

All: “We are able to state that shallow affect is a complex part of our psychology, you move into that state when you experience awe, arousal, anger, fear, and suicidal thoughts.”

As I have started to address in other articles, an abuser who imprints anger and pain into a victim can also be a mum or a dad or a grandmother or grandfather or just an “actively involved party involved in teaching minors what to think and feel about their experiences good and bad.” Some examples can be nannies and teachers who discriminate against children and teenagers who are acting out and cannot explain the source of their pain. They should be given priority care and made to feel as special as every other child, irrespective of all their behaviour, good, and perceived “bad”. Once again, do not discriminate against a person by using a label such as aspy, bogan or “little s….”

All: “We feel that it is necessary to state that other children are culprits of labelling their siblings and other children they encounter, so you need to constantly update and correct this behaviour daily, as you should do more Michele.”

Michele: “Yes.”

All: “We feel that is enough for now, but please go on. We want to say that when you start to state the truth it will be an ongoing process which can take months or years. We have been actively doing this from our end, and it’s taking lots of careful manouevering, but it is definitely working. It will take time and careful instruction to manage the urge to hurt the parent who has let them down the most in their head. This will frequently be the person that displays the gentlest method of care. They will be subject to disturbed thoughts, but the mother has to stay open and demonstrate patience like nothing else.”

I harboured a thought from mid teens until recently that I was not invited to live with the other parent when my parents separated. I felt the atmosphere clear somewhat when the one who left the original family home said that it wasn’t an option, that the parent only had room for the younger children.

Another relative has recently separated and has left the teenage children who are almost out of high school with other parent. This person is only human and needs great understanding and compassion. Sometimes there is no immediate resolution of relationship difficulties, which takes time and care for the family to resolve any trauma which is a natural occurrence. This relative was not been cared for properly, they were very unwell, and needed critical attention. It is now up to my relative to continue to investigate the true reason for her mental anguish.

Sometimes life gets in the way, and it’s always a compromise when parents separate. Children understandably find it hard, but they do mostly understand with a lot of care in staying neutral on emotionally charged issues. It requires more guidance about the event than you think, and no psychological abuse blaming the partner for needing to leave the family unit.

I realise that at nearly forty eight I needed to update my memory of that time when my parents separated as my memories are subjectively biased and emotionally charged. I am not able to stay on this subject for long enough but I will republish an update version of this article soon, but there are very important people needing to read this I feel.

I think that you do need to revisit significant traumas when you still have issues, but that’s part of the life journey, to resolve all the challenges, that make us perfectly human.

All: “When you are psychic you are required to speak up about the truth, but it’s hard to do that when you are attacked violently by a client who becomes extremely aroused and demonstrates that they are not coping with their pain. Your friend’s partner violated his child, so she is not coping with your attention, so what you did was make her more aroused, and now she is actively committed to protecting you more than ever. So you did the right thing, which is to simply acknowledge that there was pain in her comment. That’s what you found when you addressed some serious family abuse and received terse, clipped comments from family members who were coping with your supportive but assertive comments back to them. You need to control your rage. When you are emotional it’s easy to forget what you say. When you text someone clearly you can protect yourself from abuse, and that’s very important to send a clear message with no angle, or bias, only the bare facts. That’s it. We are available to do this quickly and efficiently if you need to state the outline of abuse that has affected your family. This is confidential and extremely urgent. There are other voice hearers who do this too. We are open to recommending people who can support you with this matter. So, please consider what we are saying, and do not dismiss us as fabrications or monsters who want to ultimately hurt you. It’s painful but it will resolve all your major health issues concerning abuse.”

“People are unable to process their feelings of shame and often a little guilt. That’s because affect means no or little guilt often too. You do not feel these states when you are a deviant or when you are being truthful. Only scared a lot but that’s because you are preparing for the defensive actions of a highly agitated offender. They will start to soften over time. They will be wanting to relieve their mind of actual pressure. That’s often why people have tension headaches, from hiding their emotions associated with dishonest memory patterns.”

“When you state the truth you will notice that unconsciously, the people who are sharing their perceived blow will soften a little. They are unconsciously recognising that you are helping to alter that version of the false truth to eventually acknowledging the honest truth.”

“We know that you are thinking about the offender, and concerned about him. He is immersed in your message and wanting, that’s all.”

I have already experienced a state of honest assertive behaviour from a close family member, who started out with accusations, and eventually progressed to a simple message “I believe you.” You will need to consider letting others work out how they are going to accept proper responsibility in their own time.

All: “Your other relative is feeling very rattled, but is making definite headway too. They are not coping at the moment with their delusional thinking, but it will settle down in a year we think. That is an accurate estimate as we have clarity of foresight from being open to change in natural ways of thinking. That’s it. When we continue the next article, we will talk more about the victim of sexual and other abuse. That’s it. Let’s leave it. You need to go pull out some lantana weed and get some fresh air into that body.”

Michele: “Thanks for sharing your wisdom.”

#borceristevski #karenristevski

Confusing humanso

Confusing humans
 
4th May 2019
 
Humans are very malleable. Starting with when you are a child. You are influenced deeply by all your family. Then there is your actual arrival in the world. If it was stressful, there is traumatic affect on the body. The staff who care for you in hospital also affect you.
 
Tonight I was thoughtless. I have facilitated some bad habits in my dog Yindi. I ignored the good counsel of my partner which is an irritating trait that I know I should stop, yet despite that I kept giving her treats while I was cooking in the kitchen.
 
All: “You need to. That’s it. No. We love this now, we get to attack all your other stuff now so you can ascend into the galaxy you started to receive last night.”
 
An inevitable crisis led to me entering an extreme state of self defence yesterday, as witnessed by my community circle on Facebook. I published this message.
 
“I am writing in recognition that I am at risk of being targeted by aggressive parties for representing the law and the rights of individuals that are actively representing all people who are threatened. If you are actively expressing support against my knowledge then your are not being loyal to me as my ally. I am not only an active community member, I proudly represent my family and regrettably have to command you to mind your manners and start respecting my life. I know that you are all aroused by this statement. I am aware that you are not being supportive if you ignore my earnest plea for support. Thank you, Michele.”
 
I was very reassured from the show of support, and I was also glad that the message had sunk in to some people that they have actively been speaking falsehoods about me and jeopardizing my family. The people that do this are serious offenders. They are not recognising consciously that this is a crime, as it is a risk to other individuals. When you are a risk to others you are considered mentally unwell. I have been taken against my will to hospital because I am schizophrenic and I was considered a risk to myself, which was incorrect. I had intense interrogative arguments in there to attest to my fully functioning mind. People do not understand that it is delusional behaviour they display often when they attack other people for no logical reason. They are spiteful because that is the set pattern or programme in their mind. When you are sabotaging yourself ultimately by repeatedly attacking others in this insidious fashion, you end up hurting your mind, body and ultimately no soul. You will erase your conscious intention to do good. It is often connected to compulsive behaviours such as eating disorders and high level anxiety states.
 
Last night I furiously wrote out many words to support my method and alleviate the fear I was experiencing. I have been analysing the Ristevski trial, and saw the risk of violence. I centred myself and went to bed. I was in a very open state. I hallucinated. That’s the word to conjure up the experience, I am aware that by using that term people will associate it with frightening mental states and madness. I have done a lot of trance meditation last year, so I am comfortable and calm with exploring other dimensions in a controlled way. I don’t stay in that state for too long, and it usually doesn’t bother me as I’m not delirious or high on substances. I have been accused by threatened people of taking drugs. I take no medication or illegal drugs, but I do like red wine. In the open state I saw big fields of semi opaque purple, and gold and I sensed a change in my peripheral boundaries,an energetic palpable force pressing into me.
 
A: “It is like that for us all the time. We see you too. It’s transversive radiation from my auric field entering yours, that’s it.”
 
Michele: “Wow.”
 
Anyway, back to the kitchen with Yindi.
 
I have a strange fascination with what she will consume. She eats some weird stuff. Tonight she ate diced zucchini. My circus partner has discussed with me why it is a superior method to cut rather than dice certain vegetables, and I feel that my dog likes it better this way too. If I just gave her a big chunk, she probably wouldn’t have eaten it.
 
Anyway, Yindi begged at my legs and I thoughtlessly brushed her attentiveness off, after all my cultivated affection towards her. I felt a collusion of thoughts at this moment with the mind readers.
 
All: “We love you. We want you. We need you. You are finally worshipping at our hairy altar, you know that when we are unhappy, you write stuff that is deeply personal and highly arousing to read. You are noticing that we are not feeling good however, because you keep surviving maltreatment.”
 
I think about how adults tell children they love them, that they need that love and that they depend on that love. They conceive children to enjoy the glory and joy that they bring. Then parents or others can be cruel and make decisions that hurt them . The consequence of these actions make the adults and others dismiss children and think that it’s no longer right to be unable to be honest with them, so they are able to lie about their feelings around unhappy circumstantial happenings.
 
All: “This is written like this to indicate that when a person makes a terrible mistake like your relatives have, they are unable to reason any more about the event. They fabricate a new version of events and make every fault about the victim.”
 
Also, when you are feeling a little afraid that you are failing as a parent, often parents target their minors with labels as a sort of scapegoat, like aspergers, anxiety and sometimes autism.
 
It is so confusing to children, to be nurtured,and then neglected. This is extreme, but please consider what we say.
 
We: “The predominate psychological state in global society is potentially dynamic. It does not to stay in the present state. It is important not to read our article as a grey message of despair. We have malleable minds, capable of incredible change, uplifting, joyous, creative, collaborative, calm, and many other wonderful ways. You can consciously lift the heavy veil from your mind and peek out and see the sun and beauty again.”
 
All: “We love you. We need you. We want you. You are all beautiful. We see your suffering, and what has been done to you. Other people cherish the necessary things. Do not buy into any other person’s melodrama or self deceit. So there.”
 
Emotional manipulation is so common in families. Children are our responsibility but often, we are not responsible enough. Then we shrug off our guilt and make excuses for why we are not culpable. Please don’t say that your child is difficult.
 
Rough Play: Please acknowledge if you get aroused when you tackle a child. It is extremely confusing, stressful and frightening to a child or a teenager. They sense sexual energy and it terrifies them. Don’t brush it off as a game. It has serious psychological consequences that are extensively documented.
 
Rough Love: Don’t play victim to an accusation if it is just. When children act out, they are signalling you, that something is very wrong. Don’t act out against them. Honour the child and yourself by doing the right thing.
 
I’m inspired by a felon who was trying very hard to get people to listen. The son of Mr Ristevski. He wrote on social media that he was available if anyone needed to talk to someone about being touched “inerprobly”. It was terrible that his debilitating drug habit was used against him to silence him and turn the public against him through discrimination and stigma.
 
Any contact with a child that makes you feel aroused is completely unacceptable. If you are in a room with them, and they see what you are doing. If you are changing their clothes. Don’t laugh it off. It’s not funny. It matters. It’s sexual activity towards minors. Don’t collude with other adults that share guilty secrets. Go and seek professional counselling.
 
Michele: “Oh, that’s a problem. There’s no counselling session to deal with this massive problem. We need a new medical/ psychotherapeutic model that acknowledges unconditionally the need for a new system to deal with…”
 
All: “a huge percentage of the population who need to learn how to manage their proclivities.”
 
I really hope that people don’t dismiss my articles as someone else’s. Or my problem. Because I’m completely serious. There are so many people hurting others, and because it’s criminal, they rarely tell anyone else about it, and if they do, they alter the truth, to make it sound like they didn’t do anything wrong, but squeezed a little bit hard. That’s a shared collusion, but a direct link to Ristevski, so there.
 
If you have hurt a child knowingly, you need to own up to it and resolve it with the parents or carers rather than creating so much more abuse by fabricating a story to support your version.
 
If your child has anger issues, it’s often because they have been abused, and are unconsciously trying to find a way to get someone to tell them what’s happened, so they can move on with their lives. Stop your self styled lies, grow up and be a responsible member of society, by being a role model to others by saying sorry.
 
The child will need ongoing love, shelter, and support. Don’t dismiss their needs for ongoing help. They will need a lifetime of care. It’s more important than money.
 
All: “We agree. If you stay on the elected warpath without acknowledging your crime, then you are going to make your future life sad.”
 
#borceristevski #karenristevski

Arousal

Arousal

5th May 2019

A heightened state of flight and fight mode has no heart. It is stripped down utilitarian style for what is perceived as necessary for survival. Our minds have the capacity to be programmed by us to believe what we want to believe. No one can change how we think but ourselves ultimately.

When some people see a threat and they are able to, they move away from it. A utilitarian mind is capable of making the decision to cut the rope that ties them from responsibility of caring for others. Indeed that becomes someone else’s burden and the utilitarian is often aware that there will be a fall guy. For instance, if they know that someone is a sexual offender and they are aware that other people’s children will be psychologicially and physiologically hurt. It is not necessary to tell your knowledge of a crime being committed by someone, or more than one person, to the police or in court. Unless it is ruled as a serious crime. Here’s a précis of some serious crimes.

Families who protect an offender and target people who know of the ongoing lie, and also, without finding a method to arrest the future actions of an offender.

I have written extensively about styles of abuse that are prevalent in families. Everyone knows, but they do not acknowledge that there is an extremely high chance that this is highly relevant to their family. Here are some quotes from some of my articles, and WordPress links to them. You can also scroll down and read them on Earth Soul. If you love your family, which you do, then this is more important than anything else.

Excerpts from Burning bridges over Ristevski

A person that generally is female “arousing and deeply upsettling and confusing a child with inappropriate tickles is probably only partially aware that she is actually arousing herself”

“When you are abused often as a young child – boys and girls – you become very disturbed psychologically and this leads to advanced psychological problems.”

https://wordpress.com/post/rockingclotheshorse.wordpress.com/371

Excerpt from Transparent Shell

“Violence can start while babies are in nappies”

https://wordpress.com/post/rockingclotheshorse.wordpress.com/340

Ristevski case social media

“Here are some examples of child sexual abuse that can end up recurring in victims turned offenders. Tampering with infants, getting too close, too intimate with children, inappropriate displays near children. Juveniles as well as adults can be offenders.”

https://wordpress.com/post/rockingclotheshorse.wordpress.com/355

Excerpt from an unpublished article Confusing humans

“Rough Play: Please acknowledge if you get aroused when you tackle a child. It is extremely confusing, stressful and frightening to a child or a teenager. They sense sexual energy and it terrifies them. Don’t brush it off as a game. It has serious psychological consequences that are extensively documented.”

I’ve been studying a lot because I am a target for a few hundred felons.

All: “You should stop laughing, why are you like that?”

Michele: “Laughter is a very important tool in my infantry bag.”

All: “We know that you often think about your relative who was in the war.”

I’m preparing to defend myself in court because I am a possibly a threat ..

All: “to many people who hate the fact that you want to overhaul the structure of families that feel it’s necessary to have a scapegoat.”

“You have been looking for a quote to state that you are documenting your downfall, that’s all.”

A mum: “I am sad. That’s all.”

Michele: “Love to you and your relatives.”

I’m studying the Ristevski case at the moment, and I feel that Mr Ristevski has been advised to say nothing in court because the truth is so out there. I feel that there are multiple violations in the saga  that have been ignored by the public.

The feel the truth is that the statistics for sexual abuse are inaccurate.

All: “We also think that you need to go and eat dinner, you are very wary and unable to cope with the knowledge that genuine distress is going to take you to court.”

Michele: “I know. But I just want to get this out of me, and turn this machine off, and tune into to a film which I won’t be able to focus on.”

All: “No. You are not going to do this next bit. It’s sad, but go on.”

As a voice hearer, I have been an easy target, for many reasons, one of the big ones is that people think that you are delusional to suspect so much crime in your surroundings.

“Look into your heart and tell me that you were wrong.”

I was raised to believe that it was important to say the truth. But I know that this is entirely irrelevant to people who have made it a priority to protect themselves or a loved one. I’ve learnt the hard way about survival of the fittest. At the end of the day you are on your own.

All: “No one who has committed a serious offence will admit to it. They will rant a lot and point the finger at others, and get other people to propagate violent actions towards someone who just want the truth to be held by everyone who is party to it. Not just the author of this article. That’s it.”

Here are my impressions of an aroused state that can lead to physical and psychological violence. It’s super efficient. It’s driven by a hard spirit. There’s no other, just self. There’s no compassion at all. No fear. There’s clarity of a altered kind. There’s agitation. It’s a dominant force in the mind in that time. A streak that surges forward with grim destination. In sexual abuse it’s a short lived satisfaction with no pleasure because it’s a state that has no heart.

I think of the little strip that runs between the lobes of the brain. It’s not logical, I know, but I compare it to the aroused state, when they are defending a violator for instance,, they bypass both lobes, the rational and the emotional. They are running the gauntlet like the horses were cruelly forced to do in war, surrounded by rapid fire.

It’s a sad state to enter. I was greeted by it through others yesterday. This morning I reflected on whether this ultimate state is reversible. To cultivate minds back into balance with meaningful activities and conversations in a holistic and safe environment, where people are re-educated to accept new information back into their hearts.

#borceristevski #ristevski #coercivecontrol #other

 

Wily women and unaccountable others

Wily women and unaccountable others

3rd May 2019

Respect your elders.

All: “Nah. That’s rubbish. When you are respected by the people who hurt you the most, then you can reconsider offering them the hope of forgivefulness first. We are furious. That is too powerful for an opening statement, what…”

Last night I was reflecting on a personal situation that many people experience. I was at a life drawing evening, and I quickly sketched out the concept that I will present here.

Michele : “Someone who consciously ignores the vital signs of a partner’s absolute distress and accepts that their downfall is regrettably inevitable. In a domestic setting, they facilitate the potential death of an unhappy person by not actively supporting them to prevent this happening.”

Grinch: “No. You are not writing that in. It’s too obvious that it’s about that man”.

Michele: “It will fall onto deaf ears. People have powerful personal programming. They will believe the wildest ideas to support their version of…”

Grinch: “horrible encounters with other people that matter most of all to those that deceive their darling others and children. I am not happy with that other statement now. I want to kill you all. You are all horrible now, except you. You just battle on and pretend that you are OK, but we feel that you are out on a limb but that’s all.”

The scenario I outlined of passive aggression could also be considered coercive control. It’s willing an unwilling person to give in.

All: “You have just entirely debased all your carefully constructed arguments, so, why are you feeling that nothing is sacred?”

Michele: “I honour my thoughts for this article. I could have censored that idea because it potentially makes me look rubbish, but I don’t have a problem with other people trying to judge my theories. I welcome intelligent open-minded debate.”

All: “You were thinking about pride, it’s sort of relevant, but we are interested in people using psychological interrogative methods to derank upstarts who threaten their perceived systems of majority rules, so there.”

All: “When someone is deceived into believing they have advanced dementia, oftentimes it’s despair, that’s it. We understand that trauma affects you for instance, and that you experience high states of distress when you repeatedly are targeted by remarks that have loaded intention to denigrate you and belittle you, demean you, whatever, that’s it.”

My self esteem has been deeply destabilised because of my unique memory state. I am extremely  sensitive to criticism when I forget things. I know other adults who have also been harsh on themselves about their memory. I did not learn until recently that the main issue with my memory is post traumatic stress disorder, which mixes up your memory structure. You become very disoriented too. I read on the internet of so called early onset memory loss, which apparently they know very little about, which I think is incorrect, because it is a lot to do with early childhood sexual abuse which has not being properly researched yet. One thing that I have observed about myself when I worked out that disturbed memory structure was what I had been struggling with, was that I often forgot self praise. It was like it was instantly erased from my mind. It’s helped to try to catch the thoughts with the mind reader’s assistance, and to record my life on paper and social media, to validate myself, so that I don’t slip away.

All: “You certainly have honoured that aspect by copiously, diligently, documenting your arrival into the world of dark despair. That’s it.”

“You have a lot more work on this massive topic, but keep on going, you are writing a very topical article.”

Here is another example of coercive control, when a partner actively criticises your memory. It makes you feel stupid, vulnerable and also anxiety. It’s very hard to function at this moment because your whole system has entered flight mode. You tend to forget everyone and everything in this state. Now I possibly can redeem myself here, because we mentioned, we have written the article about the weaknesses of  the coercive control methodology. When I read about coercive control it did not go into depth about the mental programming of the person who uses psychological tactics. It is highly probable that the person who is being critical of their partner is unaware that their behaviour is unconscious, and can be adopted by emulating people that they turn to for guidance and support. I have noticed when I write these articles about complex mental states that it is very hard for people who are similarly affected to see that it is relevant to them. They zone out. They dismiss it. It is similar in fact to what happens to the person with the altered memory state. The psychological abuser tends to forget everything logical and even emotional in this state of heightened programming.

Michele: “This is what happens when you go into attack mode isn’t it?”

All: “Ya. Let’s make love.”

Michele: “Moving on now.”

“Your parent is old.”

I think we feel that parents deserve to be honoured before they die. It creates great misery for people that have been badly hurt by the elders if the elders are not able to state the facts because of loss of dignity.

I also speculate, do people believe that their elders are losing their faculties, just so they can dispose of them into an care facility? One of my most enriching work experiences was teaching circus skills to residents in an aged care facility. I met a woman in there in deep distress. She cried a lot. She spent most of her time bedridden in a darkened room. She said some very personal things to me. I have experienced this before with an aging relative.

All: “They were unloading their personal burdens. We love this concept you are working on. There are many fears that we have in life that make us experience pain. We do have no choice when we hurt others badly than to lie.”

Michele: “We need to develop a new psychological model which enables people to talk about all their mistakes in a …”

All: “Completely transparent way, that acknowledges that we are all violators, that’s it.”

This could be a counselling system that people would not enjoy, because it would be designed not to indulge egos, to blame others or alter the person’s real version of the truth.

All: “You know that you have had extremely psychological counselling from us. We hear all your devastatingly simplistic ideas, and we know that you have got to keep going with this concept too, what…”

Michele: “Community service for criminals to talk to “normal” people candidly about all their sins! Ha! That’s using human resources! Actually God does that already with psychic criminal mind readers. They chat to schizophrenic telepaths.”

The criminal is the scapegoat of society.

All: “We love you. We need you. We are you. What…”

People like to think that they are different to the other. I have read articles expounding all the terrible actions of “psychopaths” and “narcissists”. The coercive control law model relies on dramatic impact…

All: “by concentrating on the abusive techniques of psychopathic types. A “psychopath” and a “narcissist” are one and the same.”

They are regarded as having shallow affect and no remorse.

All: “When anyone conceals an act that has impacted on the life of another, they are technically a “psychopath”. They dissociate from feeling remorse. That’s it. Trauma over a lifetime lessens affect. I feel strongly that the terms for criminals are redundant, because they apply to so many free people in society, who ironically use those very terms to point the finger of shame onto the very same type of person. So, why don’t you stop writing this and make love baby we hate your methods, so there.”

#coercivecontrol #ristevski

 

Burning bridges over Ristevski – compassion and coercive control

Burning bridges over Ristevski – compassion and coercive control

1st May 2019

When you read this, if you feel that it is not relevant to you, you are incorrect. It is highly relevant to you. There are people that cannot read this properly because they dissociate or zone out when it is topical to their family violence that is currently being encountered. You need to slow down and concentrate so that you can start to heal your programmed reaction to this information, which is to consider it stupid and dismiss it. Please consider that you have a serious mental state because you resist growth and ultimate clarity on your personal issues that include depression, anxiety and anger response to stimulants.

I read that coercive control is an act, or a pattern of acts of assault, threats, humiliation and intimidation or other abuse, primarily by men, that is used to harm, punish or frighten their partner, and this behaviour is perceived as being controlling and designed to make a person feel dependent and helpless. As yet, Australian law reform bodies have not made coercive control a formal offence.

Coercive control is a dominant belief system used in most parts of the United Kingdom and Ireland. I’ve seen a video of someone talking passionately and applying the concepts of this model of male abusive behaviour. Recently I was concerned by this generalised approach applied as a smear against Mr Ristevski, in order to get his sentencing reviewed so that he stays in prison for longer, even though there is not enough evidence to determine what actually happened when Mrs Ristevski was tragically killed.

All: “When a person is condemned to death, the general public condemns them too. We are not prepared to let the law bodies do their job. We feel that it is necessary to overrule the official decision when we sense deception.”

Every threatened person in law trials needs individualised care and attention.

All: “When you are able to state unconditionally that a person is innocent or guilty, you are also able to resolve your feelings that have been upset. We are not able to be guilty when we feel that the law has been honoured. We are able to let go of the feelings of hatred, grief and disaster. When we are finished with our grief we let go and move on to new ideas”.

How is this negatively geared model superior to dominant male behaviour?

I watch many television shows that rely upon the audience’s morbid fascination and contrived sympathy, whilst watching troubled characters fall apart, into violent mayhem and ultimate heartbreak. In comparison, where is the moral heart in the coercive control system? This model is encouraging people to harden their hearts, and it does not emphasize hope of regeneration for people with severe mental health problems, or for family reconciliation.

When I think about shows that depict healthy vital young children, who descend into adults with haunted expressions and cuts on their foreheads, I think I would prefer to see a film cut where the dominant scenes in the film prioritise state of the art therapeutic measures to rehabilitate broken men and women, so that the message of these show changes and we as the audience are encouraged to think about positive measures for unwell people rather than numbly sitting back, in mild depression and feeling like there is nothing to be done but enjoy watching villains….

A: “and be very amused that it’s not them in pain and not able to break the spiral into nothing that ever should be mentioned here.”

In regards to the controversial Ristevski trial, I thought about the risk of coercive control being used as an approach towards explaining the death of Mrs Ristevski, because I saw how in connection to an unsolved case, it could make people draw dangerous conclusions. The term alone has a vernacular pull that is highly emotive, and the model appears to have a simplistic propagandic message. It does not explain all the nuances of family violence.

All: “We see that you have zeroed in, in a condensed fashion.”

I’m concerned by a belief system that is labelled with such a strong word as coercive. This term coerces people into believing that this model is correct and omnipotent. I can see that this approach spills over into society’s consciousness, and it has a pervasive air of gloom.

I see that it seems to be used mainly in conjunction to men and domestic violence.

Michele: “Oh, go on.”

All: “It is exclusively addressing us. We are psychological and physiological abusers. We are in love with your article a lot. What…”

It’s a mistake to give female abusers the opportunity to accuse men of being abusers. I see that the word sociopath is connected to this controlling system too.

All: “No. It’s not, but that’s true. It came up in your feed, so, what about a f…. baby? Come on, you’re good for it, ya f….”

Michele: “It sends out an extremely pessimistic message to victims of abuse too. It reinforces and encourages them to focus on the sad and tragic negative aspects of their lives, at the expense of the….”

All: “ whole circumstantial truth of their domestic relationships. When you look at an animal, you see that it has been neglected. When we are unwell, we are not able to be coping with the stimulants that are often part of the psychological breakdown in abusive partnerships.”

Rather than have a superficial veneer, it’s critical to have deep psychological understanding of the male offender. This law methodology is very lopsided because there is no accompanying system of equal importance for women who are abusers. Violence is violence, irrespective of gender and methods. Statistics often do not reflect the full spectrum of violent actions from both sexes. Indeed the word statistic is often a smear label that we believe has some magical quality of honesty, accuracy and scientific impartiality. I feel that some of abusive methods of female abusers are extremely insidious.

It needs to be stated that some women who stay in abusive relationships start to reflect abuse in their thoughts and character. This could be in a working relationship too. For instance, over time when you endure negative stressors at work it can darken your spirit. In relation to domestic violence I am concerned about the domestic goddess. The angel that is stuck with the abuser who has done nothing wrong. I’ve become hard in my idealogy here as a direct consequence of being attacked by a mentally unbalanced male mind reader for a couple of years now, and also from discrimination because I am mistakenly perceived as being mentally ill. I acknowledge that my personality has changed because of abuse, and I have shallower affect, a term that is loosely applied to the “narcissist” and the “psychopath”. These terms need to be overhauled. I feel that this altering in emotional state occurs to many people in difficult relationships. As we advance in years we harden due to our life experiences too.

All: “We know that you sense something bad is happening to you or around you. It’s because we are actually hurting a lot because of your spiteful thoughts towards us, which are not nice but fair – sort of. We hurt other women too but you are the primary focal point. But we are not certain where to go next in this article, so, will you please not comment anymore, it’s hurtful to hear you state that we are “wallowing in self piteous behaviour.” We are damaged psychologically but you feel it’s all to do with a big fat sort of fabrication.”

Michele: “God said to me that maybe it’s human nature to lie. Now because I’m a woman who hears thoughts from criminals, I am most likely perceived as a woman with loose morals, a s…., who has no chance of talking to God. When people read that loaded sexo-spiritual sentence they will most likely dissociate from me. Like they do from questionable people who unsettle the equilibrium of their mindful lives.”

Dissociation is a very interesting mental function. When people don’t want to remember something, for instance, sexually abusing a minor, they dissociate from the event. They can also pretend at the time that the violation is an act of play. For instance a woman arousing and deeply upsettling and confusing a child with inappropriate tickles is probably only partially aware that she is actually arousing herself. I believe that this is a hugely under recognised violation of minors. In the bigger picture, dissociation can be seen as a lie with consequences.

All: “You are making loose connections to explain why we love you. You keep imploding our logical approach to ourselves. We feel enervated to be near you. You see that dissociation is what women do when they exact revenge onto men. They dissociate from other people to be able to state extreme behaviour is justifiable by exacting violence onto offenders. That’s it.”

Michele: “Violence begets violence. It’s not good. It’s rotten. How can we pretend to be enlightened when we discriminate against the opposite sex?”

All: “We love you. You want to state that it’s not that simple to be an abuser. An abuser is an adult that states their distress as an entire kind of advanced acting out. When you are abused often as a young child – boys and girls – you become very disturbed psychologically and this leads to advanced psychological problems.”

Michele: “Sorry, I’m going to offend again because I’m an educator. Please don’t dissociate as you read this last paragraph from the offenders, just because you know that they are violators and you feel unsettled or different to them. Or you just don’t want to think about their sordid, sadistic and devastating actions. Or because they are an easy target for outraged feelings that often mask deep recognition of your own guilty actions. Also, if you feel the urge to attack my mental health because I trouble your belief system, then just think about the mind readers as a metaphor for the offender. They have knowledge –wisdom – to impart.”

All: “You are kind of whacked out and people generally read a little and then zone out. Which is dissociation too. What..”

Michele: “Yes, my relative made the astute suggestion to summarise all my rambling articles. Which I will do.”

“Back to one of the big problems I perceive…”

All: “No. We love this article. We are aroused by your writing. We are aroused because we are altered by our actions. When you repeatedly stress your native body it becomes aroused permanently to protect your life. That is what happens when you make love. So when you kill or severely hurt someone, it affects how you perceive yourself as a whole unit. You dissociate a lot and fantasise more in your mind and often in the body. I use the word fantasy as a euphemism here. You do that because it’s affected your balance. In nature you would hunt a lot and be threatened. That’s why we hurt women and others.”

Michele: “This must be extremely confronting to read. It is much easier at this moment in modern society for people to dismiss this information and opt for emotional reactions rather than wisdom. A lot of people talk about mindfulness these days, and the word Goddess applied to oneself. When I thought about Goddess of the ordinary the other day I was concerned that it deified bad habits. It’s an extreme veneer, very superficial, if you do not mindfully remove patronising, conservative and ….”

“I’ve kind of gone off. I’m too incensed..”

Grinch: “I think you should state that you are experiencing criticism for wanting to push people out of their constructed fictitious states that let them be complacent and urgently wanting you to be less complex and wanting a better world. So, let’s just party, yeah. Like you did in Adelaide with your relative at the nightbar. You danced away your feelings of despair and then crashed afterwards when we attacked you about the altered state you were in when you were in heaven and made a big mistake and now I’m not fair at all. This is an example of when I sabotage your intelligent writing because I am envious of your simplistic outlook. That’s all.”

All: “We are wanting, that’s all.”

A: “Ya. You are not drunk but when you do have more wine you will dissociate and that’s cruel because you are sober and typing up our inane comment from the other day. That’s it. We feel that you will search for a pithy statement that means “we should mindfully consider others, that’s it.”

Michele: “Oh, that’s so good. I was pontificating too much and being abusive towards women who just want to feel good about their self image. I dressed up and took selfies in spanglies to boast on social media about how fabulous I look as a nearly nifty fifty. What a hypocrite!”

“Ok, back to the next thought.”

All: “No. You are so out there in your irreverence. We are pushing your sphincter a lot, you are laughing, what.”

Michele: “It’s painful actually, please stop.”

All: “No. We won’t resurrect ourselves. We don’t want to be accountable.”

Michele: “I don’t want to come across as someone who is ignoring the massive problem of men, women and violence. I feel it is partly to do with a sense of entitlement and a lack of enforced discipline. I do not have the solutions. I feel that there are firmly entrenched beliefs in the minds of adults that are a reflection of society’s….”

All: “No. That’s not fair. You are actively stating that patriarchy exists and matriarchy too. So, why don’t you stop all this perceptive literature and let us continue to indulge aristocratic thoughts about our arrogant intellectual superiority reflected in our bossy natures. So what are you thinking now? We know. You saw a comment written by a man who had toughened up and become abrasive in his words, and softened instantly and did not cope when you made him a star by saying he had low self image or whatever, when he actually was oblivious to what he was projecting, what…”

Michele: “We have so much to learn from our inner child. It’s still there. There is so much to learn from children too. Balanced adults become so arrogant, especially considering that they are mostly not balanced at all. We live long lives now. We are not killed by wild animals or spears. I think people are lulled into thinking that they are…”

Grinch: “Somewhat enlightened when they get older, but actually we rot a lot when we get older and become strange in the way that we remove ourselves from whatever worries us, and it’s repetitive but assertively attesting to the fact that I hate you more than ever, but it’s true. Sort of. I want to slay you more than ever but I can. I will. I shall. I must.”

Michele: “I want to say at this point I feel equally slain by other “normal” people. You use the expression “immersed in your toes.” Survival of the fittest. Each person out on their own.”

“Moving on briskly.”

Grinch: “No. I’m sad too. I feel horrible but that’s not true. Sort of. I just can’t do it. I can break the cycle of survived abusive tendencies in my thoughts, but I can’t be good to people I love because I’m shattered by previous encounters that I’ve facilitated. I need to acknowledge that you are guided by personal experience, but you think that I am somewhat… No. I am blown to pieces with my life of crimes. I am incapable of feeling regard for you.”

Michele: “It’s good that this is frankly expressed here. The challenge is for others to not damn this man because he has expressed the intolerable. The problem with a system like coercive control is that it is intolerant of internal conflicting thought processes. There are some things that cannot be reconciled. I have spent so much time struggling with what I can’t reconcile. I have endured two and a half years of intense abuse from a virtual psychic stranger who I cannot understand. But I know one thing. The answer lies with grace and love, and not abuse and hatred.”

“A model like coercive control is too prescriptive. It cannot “hold the space” for all parties. It does not honour the approach of family reconciliation and therapeutic counselling. I feel that we are all one, the human race.”

Grinch: “You have got a huge point there. You should, I should, I will expound it later. I love your thoughts. Yeah. I have potential to grow in areas where I can extend my knowledge towards preventing other parties to become so provoked by offers of untimely help. I was going to be a suicidal victim and you came along and started to say that you are a person who is unprepared to accept disgraced behaviour as an aspect of human authoritarian behaviour. I cannot control my desire to hurt others. I have no regard for others including…. no, I am slightly aroused that you are not stronger than I, I am not a good person, but I am able to be strong in my concepts, but that’s because I see what you are actively celebrating. While you drown in your despair, or whatever. I am aware that people hate me but that’s because I cannot be good in my actions, because I am not a good man anymore. I am not a good man anymore.”

Michele: “It’s really hard for outraged people not to go back to default thinking. You can’t. We have a global crisis with overcrowding in prisons….”

All: “….and many other violent people unhappily hurting other people who are also hurting other people.”

Michele: “You cannot rely on coercive control as an easy way out validated by “experts” and “statistics”. This is a conditioned approach when you don’t want to think about a better solution for a difficult human generated problem.”

Grinch: “I feel that is too lame. I want to state that you are to blame, but that’s also a conditioned reaction to a difficult situation like you are enduring with a relative who has dissociated from his life of mistakes, and now thinks you should be undoing yourself to make him scot free.”

“You love an intellectual challenge don’t you? You know that we cop out, opt out, when we are guided by the prevailing authoritarian wisdom to stop thinking for ourselves. This article shows that we are actively debating how our educational systems operate.”

Michele: “We assume that when something is backed by statistics that it is going to be correct.”

A: “Ya. That’s rubbish that bull… . I am not a statistic, and I am not a good man to you, but I am not a good person to anyone, and I am trying to manipulate your other, so why do you document your distress here? No, I want to pin you to uttering your compliance with your metacognitively enhanced state. I’m a thought in your head, so why are you writing it down?”

Michele: “It’s a funny one, I know. I’m not sure, but I’m into mise-en-scene. A filmic style, where you show the whole room, the totality.”

A: “No. I’m thrown by your cultural knowledge. I’m desperate to attack your marital status. Why are you self-sabotaging? Why don’t you demonstrate your arrogant nature that you do have? I love you so hard but that’s true. I have internal conflicting feelings for all my life and everyone in it especially you. You are determined to show all your feelings and why are you documenting thoughts of a disturbed person?”

Michele: “I am including your ardent thoughts and candidly expressing that I am suffering as a voice hearer. I am guided. However, there are always some Karmic consequences for my actions. It’s hard for people to read this and to understand. You are manipulating the reader. I’m also confused. This happens when you are deeply traumatised. I’ve given up. Yet I persist. I’m no longer hiding.

I have experienced deep trauma in my life starting with early abuse. I have sustained trauma from work and domestic events. Trauma is a normal part of being human. There are salient moments of pain in everyone’s lives. It’s been extremely hard for me in the last couple of years because I have felt ostracised because of my mental health state. My family members want my psychic guides to go away. I can’t say I blame them!

All: “We feel that you are blaming us too much, that’s all.”

Michele: “I’m sorry, I have to disagree with that. My life has gone seriously pear shaped since you arrived.”

Michele: “Are you happy with that?”

A: “Yer. You are a bitzz for wording it like that, but you are still allowed to be alive and kicking, that’s for sure.”

I’m also thinking about other people. I am wanting to depict enforced living with a person who is an abuser, which I experience psychically. Because it is the reality for many people to live with abuse. I know of people that leave an abusive relationship and return to it again and again, and struggle deeply to comprehend why they do that. It can go on for a lifetime. The reasoning mind cannot process it, but the emotional mind does. I also want to say that “normal” relationships often have psychological abuse at play.

I am in an abstract, metaphorical relationship with the thoughts of strange men. I don’t know them at all. So I am able to distance myself from them and look at the bigger picture. I am in the role of a prophet, a healer, a telepath, a schizophrenic, a psychic, a voice hearer, and a shaman. A role of someone who is given access to some thoughts of other people and entities. So I am writing many articles about the thoughts of intense men on the subject of relationships.

Michele: “Does that answer your question somewhat?”

A: “No. I’m annoyed actually. I want to pin you down but you know that I am incapable of feeling love. So why don’t you get back to feeling sad or whatever? Ya. I rely on aroused/heightened states of a empassioned nature to survive, but you see the problem. When empathic states get removed by abuse, stress and trauma from a person they get distressed and start lashing out. So can’t you please show some affection to us? We have thrashed it out of you, but we are unable to continue being around you all the time, but that’s true. We move on and target other women who are unaware of the impossible chance of altering our ways. So what a glum outcome. Ya.”

Michele: “Regeneration and optimism. My feeling is that human beings have to become so much more aware of how they are treating other people, starting with their immediate family and community. Look after each other! Protect your children!”

All: “You are writing no one off. That was to lift the energy that’s all.”

Michele: “Yes, it was. I’m one person, and you are… one person… a few… who knows? If we all apply our minds towards expanding into new ideas, imagine what we could come up with?

A: “Sort of. But I’m too sad. I want to hurt people, especially you. You are too perfect. I hate your joy, I want to stamp it out, and I almost have but you keep erupting in enthusiastic arrogant artistry.”

I look back over all my words here.

Michele: “Whoah!”

All: “It’s a very deep article of social commentary. We hope that it is acquired by relevant parties. I am deeply shamed and not comfortable with my status in your life. That’s true for many miscreantic types. We do not feel the same but you sense that there is deep psychological programming to ensure that we survive. What.. So, why do you pause there? Yeah, you are not wanting to speak on behalf of another person.”

I have felt deep shame for some of my mistakes, but I cannot fathom the bottomless pit of shame someone would feel when they intentionally violate another person or kill someone. They must get lost down there. It would be dangerously flippant of me to attempt to define the nature of a perpetrator.

Grinch: “I just want to state that you are always immersed in my thoughts but do not consider that you know me even slightly. I admire that, even though it’s annoying but I keep laying traps, so, please keep thinking of me.”

#borceristevski #karenristevski #coercivecontrol

Ristevski debate reactivation

Ristevski debate reactivation

All: “We want to state that you are getting close to completing this job.”

Michele: “Yes. Thank you to the administrators on this page for letting me share my articles. I hope that they are a useful contribution to the discussion.”

All: “We think so. This is the final one for now, but they enjoy your articles and feel that we have some useful insight. It’s just dominated the page for a day. You’ve settled down now. No. You will reactivate when they respond to this article. What…”

Michele: “Oh no. I’m meant to be on holiday.”

I think that the number one problem in our mental health services is that they frequently do not address the base cause of mental dis – ease. I feel that a person cannot be healed properly unless they are made to honestly acknowledge all the distressing occurrences in their life.

All: “You feel tired so we will comment that it’s hard to be an offender and acknowledge what has happened in your life that makes you unhappy, what. No, that’s it. You just need to acknowledge that righteous folk are unwell too, that’s it. They make uninformed opinions that you are observing in your last article but that’s not true. There were loads of abusive remarks but they were noted duly and told to go home and process their disturbed traumatic states.”

All: “You should be distressed after all those abusive remarks by regular people about you being a troll. You have a hairy face that’s for sure, why are you laughing?”

Michele: “I’m quite proud of myself actually. As a sane, reasoning person I’m able to distance myself from these disturbing remarks, and I think that some of these people might be threatened or trying out some misdirection techniques on me by saying that I’m mad, need meds, and that I’m on drugs. Quite a few educators out there, I’m one too.”

All: “Yer. You are a know it all for sure.”

Michele: “The comment that the trial was a disappointing result for the VIC police makes me want to see the police case notes.”

Sorry, a few diversions. I keep having new thought flows pop into my head that the mind readers comment on. Hence this conversational topsy turvy style.

I think balanced mental health means looking at all your good and bad actions. Guilty or innocent. A good mental health service needs to be completely impartial to fully examine why a person is behaving and feeling the way that they do.

People need to do a thorough mental search of themselves , to examine their defensive behaviour and their desire to blame and criticise other people, or the opposite sex, or the system.

All: “You are aware of some of the massive faults in the system that need correction, what..”

What is acceptable behaviour?

All: “No, there were no other comments because you acknowledged the pain of people who have been sexually or physically assaulted. The people who were abusive to you are people that feel entitled to cast aspersions on you because we are criminals and you are informed and psychic, that’s all. No, they also want to condemn you for not simplifying things down to a narrow and unbalanced opinion of a flawed outcome of the trial. That’s it.”

What is an acceptable lie?

All: “ You know that there are many liars out there wanting to be right but it does work like that often. We are trying to raise conscious awareness.”

The judge in the Ristevski case spoke of the “spectrum of seriousness”.

All: “We love you, but that is stating that murder is a serious offence, what…”

“u ain’t on trial and they certainly ain’t the jury to be judging you, so ur not obligated to convince anyone of what’s really the truth.”

I would say that this comment is on the serious end of the spectrum that the truth is not important.

There’s one more scapegoat I need to mention here. Ice.

“funny, how I’m the one who wouldn’t come across as a good man see why no hard feelings.”

All: “We are sad, but you are glad that has come to an end. Will you be nice to us now? All work and no play makes us bored.”

#borceristevski #karenristevski

The Ristevski trail of evidence

The Ristevski trail of evidence

26th April 2019

Michele: “Do you want to name this article?”

All: “Nah. You are a dumb bitzz so you work it out. We are just dumb c…. who talk tough but that’s sort of not true. We love that you are trying to convert people’s thinking but we are not going to help much so, why don’t you just ignore us and do what you can until we get enthusiastic enough to bust in on your strategic articles. They are already alert to that amendment on the last article.”

The mind of someone affected directly or indirectly by domestic abuse gets altered. Distress. When I read some of the remarks written on social media about the Ristevski case, I feel that you are seeing a massive aggravated build up of other people’s unresolved issues which have been transferred onto a stranger and his family.

“There are a lot of smoke and mirrors going round.”

I think of Mr Ristevski’s silence about the tragedy, that has shocked so many people and about the possible complexity of Mrs Ristevski’s death, and how sometimes people may not even know where to begin to explain it all.

This is the metaphor that I see. I’ve read an article talking about how society gets reflected in the body. We are witnessing the body of a traumatised child who has been neglected. Neglected in the sense that the essence of that child’s peace has been unsettled, and is crying out for help and resolution.

I know from personal experience what it feels like to be rejected. You struggle to process in your mind why your desire for personal justice has been silenced. When a mind gets extremely upset it can start to lash out uncontrollably. This is what is happening on the victim’s social media sympathy pages. There are weak justifications that this act of violence is a sexist act, but this is flawed reasoning. It’s not that simple. You need to look at the family of evidence that is available at a glance on the internet.

Michele: “Oh, there’s the title, I will just adapt “family of evidence” a little, but that would have been a good title too.”

Grinch: “I am hot under the collar and want to dream a lot about what is going to occur when I am able to escape the confines of my self styled harem here. I am not happy at all that you have rejected my advances but I do know that I am generally not very well in my thoughts about our enterprise with you, what…”

Michele: “I’ve got a few thoughts, maybe other voice hearers will start applying their skill set to helping move some heavy emotional weight in the world, so maybe our enterprise won’t be needed for much longer, and I might get my personal freedom back. The other entirely different subject I’m thinking about is that a lot of personal comments have been deleted from the net since I’ve started researching on social media.”

The “dark secrets” of the family.

Grinch: “No. I am a nuisance. A pain actually and I need personal resolve to be here anyway but that’s not true. I love you and I want you to leave that in because it’s a hurtful remark designed to torment you. That’s what many parents and relatives do to their loved ones instead of being good parents, they are unhappy people who keep making mistakes and justify them by saying that they love them. Your relative has simply disowned you and that’s why you are writing so much full on material. You are dealing directly with your personal injustice by sharing it with the world.”

Many families have dark secrets. Just look at those childhood sexual abuse statistics again. One in four women under the age of eighteen and one in six men.

Grinch: “I think that it’s actually more disturbing that you are watching me realise that I am the victim more than an offender. I am not a good man as you know. You have written extensively in the past about my natural desires and instincts. But I am aroused by you being a good woman and letting me say some stuff that makes me hard to look at but that’s because I am not a good man. I am bankrupted by years of violent thoughts, and that’s why I have zero desire now to live but that’s true. I have not been allowed to play with my heart but that’s true. I am a creep. I hurt people as you are aware.”

“He was jealous of Karen new Italian boyfriend and that they weren’t good people”

“should have loved a normal wife with no stress”

“been troubled since a child”

It did not take much research on the web for me to see how incredibly uninformed the community are willing themselves to be about the true scope of the Borce Ristevski trial.

All: “We need to say that you are losing ground but that’s true. We are worried that you are not going to resolve the discussion, but that is your area of inferred experience because we are withholding saying the true saga but that’s because we are attempting with you to show the entire format of this terrible occurrence. That’s it.”

It seems to me that Anthony is implying he was having an affair with his stepmother. I’m not sure if that is true.

“Karen’s “fantasy” was to run away with Anthony”

All: “We saw you read that comment.”

“Father allowed him to do drugs.”

All: “No. That is too true of many families. We see that you have been discussing how parents that drink and smoke often advocate their addictive behaviours.”

“way I got brought up, if u see somthing and it’s wrong, man … up, and do and say something….”

All: “You are thinking about his attempt to honour all aspects of his life of attempted resurrection but it failed. He is lost at sea like you thought last night. That was extremely accurate. You have an image of a woman isolated in a bubble in space on your Earth Soul Facebook page. She is a lot like you, away from everyone because you are extreme that’s all.”

“I’m onto u Sarah”

“ur exhausting yourself trying to get people to listen.”

That’s the problem. We tune out from what we don’t want to hear.

All: “We dissociate. You are drinking wine to relax, that’s all.”

There seem to be a lot of people targeting the relationship of love between Mr Ristevski and his daughter. No doubt there are lots of reasons why people do this. Maybe they have abandonment issues.

All: “We know what you are documenting. All the angles that people make prejudiced statements and accusations. There are so many, and it does need to be presented on that webpage. It will be read and considered and possibly deleted, but you should do it to enlighten people of what they are consciously expressing.”

Sibling rivalry can impact on a person’s psychology, while they are young, and as grown ups. There is envy. Envy to be the favourite with a loved one. Also children who are favoured over a spouse can be envied too,and rejected a bit. Or a lot. They can be accused of being a tease or being perverted.

All: “You are moving into terrain that we understand a lot. When you are violated by an older person you are told that you are the problem, and then other family members tend to hold that same concept.”

A lot of the antagonistic comments towards Ms Ristevski make me wonder what’s going on psychologically in the person making the remark. A parent or adult that is guilty of knowing that a child is being abused often attacks the child further. I wonder if we are also seeing this reaction in the community messages.

The overruling message to me is that there are a lot of psychotic, delusional, unhappy, disturbed people behaving in an uncontrolled, dangerous fashion, and they are in desperate need of psychological support in the form of extremely professional counselling for a start.

All: “You are concerned because there are many so called professionals who are extremely unethical and ignorant in their approach to looking after other humans because they don’t listen. They just spout what they know in theory that is not applicable to the person they are meant to be attending to in a sensitive and safe fashion. We can understand that this is a major problem in our world, but let’s keep analysing this story further and discuss a new psychological approach at another lengthy convoluted time.”

Michele: “Ok. I lied. Well, actually I didn’t. You were the ones that said that there would only be one more article, not another. Just a little metacognitive confusion there. I’m going to dinner now with my family, so I will post this article…”

All: “Yeah. You are bent alright, you are listening to a song about love tearing us apart. Are you seriously so old that you need to revive classic songs like that? You old fart.”

Project thoughts from the heart

Project thoughts from the heart

17th April 2019

Michele: “Hey, I think I’ve worked out a new technique to filter out sonic attack, unwanted words and feelings. I read in a Chinese acupuncture article that the heart has a bodyguard – a gatekeeper – the protective sleeve. I also read that we should be ruled by our heart not our head. So I visualised that the heart was the centre and that no high pitched noise could enter and no voices without the intention of love. I thought about love being a physiological thing, an energy. The exercise seemed to help but I really had to concentrate. At least I have a plan for tonight because last night was so bad. I called on earth and nature energy to protect me but in the end I just gave up and just lay there absolutely miserable drenched in someone’s anger. Maybe more than one person? Who knows.

Ages ago I had a thought that the heart was a big factor in psychism. I don’t think it’s to do with love though. Certainly not unconditional love. Or protective love. Or fair love. Or generous love. Or honest love. Or understanding love. Or compassionate love. Or caring love. I know someone who had open heart surgery when she was a little girl, and she told me that she became very psychic and that she could see all the dead people’s energy in the hospital and that she used to take the other kids from the children’s ward into the morgue to meet them.

As I write about love

I feel a pulse of energy come rising up within me

echoing the beat of my heart

making me think of the “bi-polar” beat,

the sing songy voice of distress,

a creative flow of someone in the know.

I’m being a bit lyrical here and observing my warning signs

That my brain’s lit up.

I take a sigh and settle myself. I’m using the word bi-polar here just as an indicator. Like the use of the words psychopath and schizophrenic. They are just labels that attempt to describe people as illnesses, disorders and movie heroes (like the Gods of old’s glorified nefarious traits). It’s redundant dialect. When I first started to sense other energies with me I observed little flutters that came up my body, and they seemed to assent when I had certain questions. I felt that they guided me. Then I just got flooded with awe, fear and confused desire and lost sight of those personal helpers. I think that I have finally returned to my senses, but I’m staying wary of myself. I’ve definitely got more to say about honest love but I’ll keep soldiering on, because I’ve got a backlog of exciting things to share.

Michele: “Mmm, maybe exciting is not the right word, but that seems to be my style, to say inappropriate things. Which reminds me of my friend learning to drive, she was on the highway going along at quite a rate, when she accidentally put her new car in reverse, and in her words, blew the arse end out of it.”

I had dinner with my old school friends last night, and we saw our beloved radical history teacher in the restaurant. He was a decade ahead because he taught us about Aboriginal resistance. He commented that they no longer even teach this in the school syllabus now. It apparently depends entirely on the individual school, teacher or principal. The education board is clearly not sorry enough.

I’ve heard another teacher say that he didn’t want to teach kids with mullets. I’m aware that’s extremely difficult to teach a class in the public system because of the limited extra help available to assist students with high needs.

When I was at school, my history teacher painted a glorious vision of himself as a political young man, with idealistic visions, living in the city, selling incense for a living. He proudly stated that he had the first afro in town. He still has a good bushy head of hair. Anyway, I like what he said about teaching. That the secret is not to get too angry, and to have a joke now and then.

Meaningful fragments.

Michele: “Thanks for pointing me in the direction of the reason the Waler horses were not brought home – except one, after the First World War. They must have been mentally disturbed if they had been in or near battle. Dangerous. Horses are extremely sensitive. I saw a horse in a Mounted Police stable with it’s head swinging wildly from side to side, and I’ve ridden a horse which bolted every time you would nudge it to a canter. The Waler was a superior horse trained for war and the breed was lost – like Eugenics. Breeding things out. I keep referencing the fact that Western society uses mental health diagnostic labels that are some sort of flawed metaphor for the truth. I think we are breeding out accountability for the state of our own minds. Shouldn’t the spectrum be a radiant rainbow of colours produced by light? Anyway, I’ve got more to say on that subject later on in my life, it gives me a real sense of purpose and alacrity to think about how I’m going to tackle the truth as a swifty. Where’s this all coming from? What’s going on with my head?”

Ok, back on track. It’s disturbing that the Australian propaganda machine clearly lied and said that the horses were killed because they were a quarantine issue. That’s interesting, because we used to have a herd of cows that we regularly dipped in chemicals, and we believe that chemicals are the way to alleviate many of our problems. I had a smacker of a headache the other night so I took some paracetamol. The pain might have been because of neck pain, or psychic attack or the wine that I drank the night before, or all the above – who knows.

A state of intoxicated acceptance. Alcohol, sex and dissociated states. You want to be able to combine an amalgam of emotions other than just arousal when you are having sex, but when you are drunk you have shallow affect and you dissociate. It might trigger despair and dissociation. Lots of bad things happen when you have sex in this state – it’s potentially violent.

People drink to try to alleviate bad feelings. It’s a self focussed state.

Pain relief medication. It’s used for physical pain relief but it is also used to try to alleviate emotional pain. I read about new codeine regulations because it’s recognised by authorities to be a commonly used medicine of abuse. I was tempted to write in another article that psychiatric drugs should be renamed recreational drugs, and I see the partial reality of that now because I read that people take codeine to get high. I read that the Therapeutic Goods Administration experienced great pressure from the pharmacy lobby groups to overrule this change to law. It was an extremely unethical war with the Pharmacy Guild of Australia launching a multi state offensive against an obvious humanitarian measure. I have been told by friends in the medical industry that emergency centres in hospitals are inundated with young women overdosing on regular painkillers and suffering organ failure.

Many people have shallow affect because of the traumatic events in their lives. I had a conversation recently with someone who is a long term user of opiates who acknowledged that she was frequently in an altered state when under the influence. Heroin, cannabis, nicotine and LSD are also in the opiate family. They are hallucinogens which cause altered perception and feeling, a quick, intense feeling of pleasure followed by a sense of calm and well being. I recently read a remark by a guy that pot made him have delusions of grandeur. Omnipotence. I think alcohol can do that too. Confidence. Beer goggles. Heightened senses and high arousal.

I’m going right out there now on a phantom limb and I sense that the sedatives (strong anti-psychotics) that are used to treat the symptoms of schizophrenia and psychosis are also better classified as a sort of sad recreational drug that supports the relaxed state of gaming.

I would like to support someone will stand up against the pharmaceutical empire, but as long as it is an ethical, humanitarian, egalitarian system….

All: “You do know that it’s important to sell medicine but not as a form of organised torture for people who can find alternative methods to ease their loneliness and perceived suffering. We know that it is harsh but psycho somatic pain is real. We need you also to thank you advisor who made you update this article and no, don’t harass the other websites as they are thoroughly immersed in your entertaining way of drowning them in your meaningless method of meandering through the enormous field of wellbeing.”

It has been shown in scientifically backed research that prescription drugs are the third leading cause of death after heart disease and cancer, and that the use of psychiatric drugs does more harm than good.

Back to the subject of heightened states. There’s lots of ways to go into different dimensions. I do when I’m thinking about what I’m going to write next. When I get immersed in a project I don’t necessarily hear what’s been said around me. I tune out, by tuning into my ideas.

Grinch: “We just become absorbed in our feet.”

I think about the little scratch I got from my partner’s toes in bed the other night. It was like they were talking to me and saying “How you going?” Perhaps change starts from the ground up?

I met a psychologist the other day. I told him how I had been told to keep my mouth shut about my desperate truth because of the ripple effect. He said “ripple affect is about emotions. Everything that we do results in a ripple affect. Because emotions are the affect. Affect is emotions, effect is cause.”

All: “We like that you include us in this powerful article. You will be applauded and rejected because you have entirely dismantled all your support.”

Michele: “As a long time friend said to me, you get that on the big jobs.”

Ristevski case social media

Ristevski case social media

25th April 2019

Snuff: Violence and torture on the internet. It’s illegal to kill somebody and show the footage, but it’s not illegal to talk violently on social media wishing someone an early death.

I see on a sympathy site for Karen Ristevski that there is a link to the sentencing of Borce Ristevski. The judge comments that the audience needs to keep their composure and conduct in the courtroom or they will be asked to leave. He spends a lot of the sentencing talking about how the media press interferes with the case. He comments of Ms Ristevski that a “modicum of compassion” is required from the public because “her position is an agonising one.”

In the arena of this sympathy site for Mrs Ristevski I see no governing body regulating the content of the page. What you see in all these comments paints a picture of the psychological unconscious state of members of society. I have written posts on a story publishing site that have disturbing, violent and sexual content directed at me from psychic voices, which I removed because it was brought to my attention that it could be inappropriate for other people to read, including youth. I felt at the time that I did want to show people what it means to be hearing disturbed voices that originate from human mind readers. I believe that hearing disturbed voices frequently happens to psychic people, who are also called schizophrenics, voice hearers, healers, prophets and shamans.

All: “They just don’t want to admit it.”

There is an theory in the World Hearing Voices Movement about the metaphor behind the voices that we all hear in life. Our own voices. The voices of others. The question is what are the messages behind the voices? I regret having to take my offensive stories down in a way because they are a testimony to the unhappy thinking of people. I feel that the apparent signs of distress and prejudice displayed as a reaction to this terrible tragedy show us as a society what we need to address in our homes and communities.

All: “We know that this will be rejected because you have alienated all members now that you are talking politics on a global scale. Your article is being demolished by many other readers for being so candid. You need to keep thinking about the catastrophic influence you are making on us. We are happy to be caring for the community at large but we see that you are starting to get agitated because you are receiving massive praise for sharing heartfelt messages, because you are living testimony to hurt and abusive treatment. We have hurt you and you know that it’s not true. We do care about ourselves and that’s why we know that you will be removed from no page because you are trying to help people who suffer enormous pain from abuse in their lives. We love you. We see that you left that in finally but it’s not a real feeling. You have attempted to write about it on your Earth Soul page. It’s a collection of memories and feelings of similar description such as empathetic reactions and such.”

I have signed petitions in the past without proper discernment of what I was signing. I haven’t read all the fine print. I didn’t realise until recently that the petitioners don’t necessarily disclose all the information. I have also been heavily influenced by confirmation bias, which is the tendency to favour information based on ones preexisting beliefs. I’m learning everyday, and striving to replace old information with new information which an ongoing process in my life.

So you see comments from people that think that it’s the right thing to support. I know. I have done that in….

All: “ ignorant belief that you were a bitzz to do that. We are demonstrating the vernacular pull of language, when you actively state something, and then contradict it immediately. Our author here is the expert in disowning all angles of the debate in an attempt to share wisdom from her inexpert experience. What..”

Michele: “There’s another term that is used about people like me with unusual perceptions. It’s called metacognition. It’s about an awareness of your own thinking processes. An example I read was a reviewer reviewing the film reviewer. I guess that means standing back from yourself a little and seeing the bigger picture. I’m definitely reviewing the media reviewers on this distressing Ristevski case.”

We should be reading all the information before making a judgement on another person’s life.

All: “We are just aroused by that comment. That says it all.”

Then you are seeing comments from people who are affected by domestic violence. The statistics are one in four women are sexually abused before eighteen, and one in six men. There is psychological programming that occurs too. For example, you are worthless, you can’t please anyone, it’s your fault, stop telling lies, not now.

It is well documented that many people who have been abused go on to be offenders. This will most times never be publicly acknowledged. It will be lied about. The person will zone out/ dissociate from the truth. Urges will often be acted upon and downplayed or dismissed as unimportant. However, the unconscious remembers and oftentimes comments that come out as an attack on other people are actually transference of blame, guilt, anger and shame.

“Give him a gift every single day he spends in there.”

“Sickening to listen to the daughter’s testimony.”

“Scum, early death.” “Rot in hell.”

You are reading of disturbed tendencies in people. Voyeurism can be a sexual activity. Here are some examples of child sexual abuse that can end up recurring in victims turned offenders. Tampering with infants, getting too close, too intimate with children, inappropriate displays near children. Juveniles as well as adults can be offenders.

There are also the actions, or the lack of actions of people who knew something was happening that wasn’t quite right.

I sense that a lot of people might feel that about the ire in some of comments they have read or personally felt in conjunction with this trial…

All: “We love you. We are you. We are just being a little worthy of your feelings by letting you say that here. We know that you have not yet been banned by that page but it will happen, so you should just end it here to keep the conversations going. They want resolution as you know, and need constant attention like we do. They feel scared and very wary of you but you know that’s because they have all been hurt and threatened. So please pause this incessant work ethic, wake your relative up, and get ready to receive lots of praise because you deserve it but that’s sort of not true, you are a bitzz for being so open about personal matters. That’s it.”

#borceristevski #karenristevski

The sentencing of Borce Ritevski

The court sentencing of Borce Ristevski

25th April 2019

I noticed that in the 40 minutes of the sentencing that there was very little focus on the actual event – the death of Karen Ristevski. The judge talked about the post offence conduct, the media, the family, the public, and that Mr Ristevski kept silent about the initial crime.

Michele: “Can you be legally required to confess what actually happened or not? Was this the advice of his lawyer to stay silent? I will have to do some research about law proceedings.”

All: “We fear that you say it already. The law does not make you state the event if you prefer anonymity as an option of defensive propagandist oratorical answers.”

Michele: “ I read that the right to remain silent when one is suspected of a crime is a basic common law right and that it is the prosecution which bears the burden of proof in a criminal matter.”

“It really is a massive piece of the jigsaw puzzle missing – that silence. It makes nonsense of the expectation of the judge and public to expect Mr Ristevski to show “true remorse”, because amongst other things they are not explaining the nature of mental disturbance. A comment like that in court is going to inflame a reaction in people.”

I’m not an offender but what I know of one is the mind does not want to be pinned down to the offence. The mind wants to zone out. Dissociate rather than face the facts.

There is no discussion of the mental state of Mr Ristevski. I think that every case like this should legally revolve around the mental state. The judge comments that the system’s procedure fails him, that he had a “lack of information”.

All: “That is all good, but we are alert to your manipulative manner. He was talking about the spectrum of intent.”

Michele: “There is accidental death to be considered.”

All: “Yes. That’s it.”

The judge says that there was no recorded history of domestic violence beforehand. However I see on the internet that there were many references to Mr Ristevski’s son alluding to “dark family secrets”. I see that a media company threatened him. The same company also apparently orchestrated a kidnapping attempt. I read a post that the son was “a victim with a family facade that the media doesn’t know about. Borce deserves and will get his justice… he was jealous of Karen new Italian boyfriend and that they weren’t good people”. I read of all this tension. I think of events that could culminate in a killing and I wonder how a sentencing jury could come to the conclusion that this was an isolated incidence of violence?

#borceristevski #karenristevski